She is drowning and
he will never find her.

She is dying and
he will soon lost her.

n.e

Falling for you *****.
I cry my tears every night
just because you never really
know that I want you so bad.

n.e

i wrote this and dedicate this for my first love. i miss you. i'm sorry, i'll never be as good as her and i'll never be as pretty as her.*

i once loved a boy
who never (really) loved me back.

he was the one
who i thought i could spend
the rest of my life with.

he was the one
who i thought he could be
my first and my last.

but then this girl
who i called
a  m o n s t e r.
the scariest monster
she came and
she took him away.

she turned him
into someone i didn't know
she changed him
into the worst person
i've ever known
but mainly
she was the reason
why my first love gave up on me.

it was 8 a.m
           tuesday
           21st of may 2013
the sun shone so bright that morning
i got a call
it was from him
he said
he didn't love me
anymore

the worst part
from the call was
he wanted a break-up
    i said no
    i wanted him to stay
    he was the reason why i was happy
    he was the reason why i stayed strong
    he was the reason why i believed in love
    he was my  e v e r y t h i n g.
he said
i'm sorry i can't

i hung up the phone
i cried
i c ried
i c r ied
i c r i ed
i c r i e d
i  c r i e d

on that day
at 3 p.m
i texted him
the last thing
i wanted to do with him
we met
we laughed
we ate lunch
we small-talked
we were holding hands

i even forgot
about the break-up
i kept falling for him
a little bit more.

i hugged him
and
he said
    *i'm sorry, i think you and me
    we can't be together anymore
    you deserve someone better
    i'm not good enough for you
    i'm sorry

it was
the worst day of my life
the first and the worst
heartbreak in my life
e v e r.

01.10.11
until
21.05.13
598 days
of
me
and
him.

and i think that
the words
  the first rush of love
  always holds a special place
  in our hearts.
  the novelty of the feeling
  like the first drops of dew
  on an untouched leaf
  makes it special and unforgettable.
are true.

however,
my mother told me
to move on
to not linger in the past
but cherish its events
for you will never
get them back.

n.e

You realize that loving me could have killed you, but you still do it anyway.

n.e

Seven sixty eight miles away,
and I’m intoxicated by you again today.

Seven sixty eight miles away,
tell me not to stop longing you this way.

Seven sixty eight miles away,
and I will wait for you day after day.

n.e

"Because my love for you
is higher than words,
I have decided to fall silent."

I'd describe myself as the protagonist who is often mistaken as the antagonist one.

n.e

I've been waiting for you
To say those three words
That could change our lives
When me and you
Will become us...

n.e

You feel like hell,
and I don't quite like it,
yet I still want to suffer.

n.e

I never wanted
to fall in love,
with anyone,
at all.

Because falling
means
I will get hurt.

And if I get hurt
I probably
will not survive.

n.e

Tonight,
I can feel my body shaking
and my mind rumbling.

Have you ever wanted
to weep everything out
but you just can't?

Perhaps,
I've been hurt
for infinite times
'til I become strong enough
to face everything
that will tear my soul apart.

The road might gets rough,
the going might gets tough
but still... you have to
stay strong, soul.

n.e

Are you happy now that you have finally had a chance to leave the scars inside me?

Are you happy now for drowning me to the ocean of your sweet words, warm hugs, tender kisses and terrible hurt?

Are you?

n.e

Loving you is like
waiting for the sun to shine
but the rain won't stop pouring down.

Loving you is like
wanting peace to happen
but the war is still going on.

n.e

As I travel back
To the memory lane of ours
I witness what beauty was
It was you holding me
When everyone let go
It was you keeping me
When everyone gave up
It was you serenading me
When everyone shouted
Now that you're gone
I guess I'll never know what beauty is

n.e

Hi, sky
Why are you crying so hard?
You're even bringing up your old friends,
the storm and the thunder

It seems like you could feel what I'm feeling now
But you do not need to emphatize myself

I want you to be happy
Not to be sad
and disappointing like me
You won't let anyone down,
will you?

n.e

Do you know that
being in your arms
has became
my most favorite thing?

n.e

As I open my eyes
I realized you're not there
And I am dead.

n.e

Here is a gun.
Take it.
Point it right to my chest.
Shoot it on me.
Let me die.
As dying would be the only option for me to heal.

Can't stand this cruel world.


n.e

It is not you who I miss, it is us.

At 2 when we were woke.
Talking about the future and things;
How you wanted to be a magnate,
and I'd be your #1 supporting system;
How we'd build a nice home on top of the mountain;
How we'd travel to Turkey,
riding air balloon, kissing near the sky;
And how we'd make love at Maldives, enjoying every scenes.

It is not you who I miss, it is us.

At 3 we were still woke.
Telling you how my day was.
I complained a lot of things.
I cried, not knowing how to control.
You were there, you put me up.
"Sweetcheeks, it is going to be fine."
I believe I am going to be fine,
until you're slowly fading away,
and now us.


n.e

If we remember that day, happened so fast.
We were falling, falling in love, they said.
We thought God might have written it all.
The sweet destiny of us.
The endless happiness in us.
We used to believe, we will work it out.
Till the hair turns grey, till the skin gets aged.

Do we even know what happens next?

It’s the same, we’re still falling.
But this time, it’s the kind of falling
that breaks the bricks.
And this time, it’s the kind of falling
that causes a stitch.

n.e

I'm so far away from home
Missing you
Craving for your arms
and your lips too.

I'm so far away from home
I'm alone
I've never thought
I'd be standing on my own.

I wish I were back home.

n.e

The strongest weapon is our 'made-up' thought that happens to be untrue in reality. It kills. It destroys. It shatters us into pieces.

n.e

I don't mind
losing those
who I call home,
as for now
I am my own home.

n.e

When you are empty
And feeling lonely
Darling, come to me
I am your home...

When you are sad
Or the world makes you mad
Come to me,
I am your home...

n.e

How do you manage
to love me
and break me
at the same time?

n.e

Running to a quiet place
Filled with silence
Lavished in peace
Not hoping we'd end up in miss

Time is better reversible
We'd run somewhere liveable
Not stuck in this hazy space
Forever till reaper pace

We've lost way
Not knowing where to flee
Nor how to evanesce
We are lost in a maze

n.e

I have been waiting for you to come home, but you build a new one.

n.e

I love the way you shine
Bright and shining
Bright your beauty
And underneath those dreary clouds
You still shine

n.e

My biggest regret
was waiting for you,
when you don't
even notice
my presence.

n.e

Some things are beautiful,
including you.
You are beautiful,
and you hurt me.

n.e

Have you ever wished to never hear a truth that you never expect to be told?

Because I have.

I have been very heartbroken for the past few days at the fact that my boyfriend confessed his sin to me.

He cheated on me with four different girls while we're going on the third year of our relationship.

I appreciate his honesty, yet it kills me really. Loyalty is ****.

n.e

I want to love you
Until it breaks me
And until it hurts me.

I want to love you
And I don't mind
As long as it is you.

I want to love you
Forever, darling.

n.e

It's so ironic
how I look at you
hoping for you to look back at me.

but when our eyes meet
I look away
because I don't want you to
see how much I need you.

n.e

God creates rain
to make you feel
less lonely;
to be the friend
that you need
when you want
to cry.

n.e

"Loneliness forced me to be my own bestfriend."

Through all these empty nights
And the feeling of distant
I hope you know, I am fine
I will find my own color
In the midst of grayness
I will show you my shine
Though we drown in the darkness
I will stop looking for you
Seeing that myself is enough

n.e

As you want to see me dead,
come see my dead body,
buried at the cemetery
near your house.
And know,
my tombstone
is the abandoned one.

n.e

I learned from Gatsby,
sometimes you need to
let go of the person
you love the most.
Otherwise....
you will die young.

n.e

8 months ago...

"Should I wait for you?"
"No, just don't."
"But why?"
"Because I may never come back."

n.e

Until now,
I remember that day;
when the fire was lit,
the trust was betrayed,
the argument was perpetual,
and the ego won over the love.
We had no doubt.
It was the kind of farewell that we longed for.

n.e

She made the moon
look dull.

Though the stars
are weeping jealous.

They have no clue
how darkness could
turn it lifeless.

n.e

The furthest I've been away from you is here.
We're close, yet you're so out of reach.
We're near, yet you're running far.

n.e

You were the one
who I always waited for.

Now that you're gone,

I will never have
to wait anymore.

n.e

What's love without sacrifice?

It's nothing,
but tears.

n.e

"He was a skyscraper
she was a plane
she could surround him for hours
and nothing would change
until she began to fall
then he'd stand and stare
but only behind the glass
because that's how much he cared."

It was a blue night with a full moon.
The companionless wolf ran to the deep frigid woods.
He had nowhere else to go, but there, indeed.
He looked up to the dark sky, howling in pain.
The moon observed, catching him in sorrow.
She whispered, ‘My poor wolf, left behind by your pack’.
‘Who might that be, who might that be’ the wolf wailed.
‘I feel your woe, do not fret, let us find solace’.
Her reply turned the wolf whimpering.
‘Enough with the lament, I promise I am here for you’.
And every time the night is blue, the full moon appears,
sticking to the lone wolf in tears.

n.e

I'm standing on the lowest point of my life where everything breaks me down.

n.e

You are
the only thing
I am
most grateful for...

Even though
your existence
sometimes
could tear
my paper heart.

n.e

I find it strange
The more we know each other
The distant we become.

n.e