"He was a skyscraper
she was a plane
she could surround him for hours
and nothing would change
until she began to fall
then he'd stand and stare
but only behind the glass
because that's how much he cared."

I want to love you
Until it breaks me
And until it hurts me.

I want to love you
And I don't mind
As long as it is you.

I want to love you
Forever, darling.

n.e

Loving you is like
waiting for the sun to shine
but the rain won't stop pouring down.

Loving you is like
wanting peace to happen
but the war is still going on.

n.e

It's so ironic
how I look at you
hoping for you to look back at me.

but when our eyes meet
I look away
because I don't want you to
see how much I need you.

n.e

I learned from Gatsby,
sometimes you need to
let go of the person
you love the most.
Otherwise....
you will die young.

n.e

Some things are beautiful,
including you.
You are beautiful,
and you hurt me.

n.e

I find it strange
The more we know each other
The distant we become.

n.e

When you are empty
And feeling lonely
Darling, come to me
I am your home...

When you are sad
Or the world makes you mad
Come to me,
I am your home...

n.e

i wrote this and dedicate this for my first love. i miss you. i'm sorry, i'll never be as good as her and i'll never be as pretty as her.*

i once loved a boy
who never (really) loved me back.

he was the one
who i thought i could spend
the rest of my life with.

he was the one
who i thought he could be
my first and my last.

but then this girl
who i called
a  m o n s t e r.
the scariest monster
she came and
she took him away.

she turned him
into someone i didn't know
she changed him
into the worst person
i've ever known
but mainly
she was the reason
why my first love gave up on me.

it was 8 a.m
           tuesday
           21st of may 2013
the sun shone so bright that morning
i got a call
it was from him
he said
he didn't love me
anymore

the worst part
from the call was
he wanted a break-up
    i said no
    i wanted him to stay
    he was the reason why i was happy
    he was the reason why i stayed strong
    he was the reason why i believed in love
    he was my  e v e r y t h i n g.
he said
i'm sorry i can't

i hung up the phone
i cried
i c ried
i c r ied
i c r i ed
i c r i e d
i  c r i e d

on that day
at 3 p.m
i texted him
the last thing
i wanted to do with him
we met
we laughed
we ate lunch
we small-talked
we were holding hands

i even forgot
about the break-up
i kept falling for him
a little bit more.

i hugged him
and
he said
    *i'm sorry, i think you and me
    we can't be together anymore
    you deserve someone better
    i'm not good enough for you
    i'm sorry

it was
the worst day of my life
the first and the worst
heartbreak in my life
e v e r.

01.10.11
until
21.05.13
598 days
of
me
and
him.

and i think that
the words
  the first rush of love
  always holds a special place
  in our hearts.
  the novelty of the feeling
  like the first drops of dew
  on an untouched leaf
  makes it special and unforgettable.
are true.

however,
my mother told me
to move on
to not linger in the past
but cherish its events
for you will never
get them back.

n.e

How do you manage
to love me
and break me
at the same time?

n.e

She made the moon
look dull.

Though the stars
are weeping jealous.

They have no clue
how darkness could
turn it lifeless.

n.e

When I caught him
staring at me
and I wouldn't even bother
to stare back.

n.e

Seven sixty eight miles away,
and I’m intoxicated by you again today.

Seven sixty eight miles away,
tell me not to stop longing you this way.

Seven sixty eight miles away,
and I will wait for you day after day.

n.e

I never wanted
to fall in love,
with anyone,
at all.

Because falling
means
I will get hurt.

And if I get hurt
I probably
will not survive.

n.e

God creates rain
to make you feel
less lonely;
to be the friend
that you need
when you want
to cry.

n.e

You are
the only thing
I am
most grateful for...

Even though
your existence
sometimes
could tear
my paper heart.

n.e

I have been waiting for you to come home, but you build a new one.

n.e

Running to a quiet place
Filled with silence
Lavished in peace
Not hoping we'd end up in miss

Time is better reversible
We'd run somewhere liveable
Not stuck in this hazy space
Forever till reaper pace

We've lost way
Not knowing where to flee
Nor how to evanesce
We are lost in a maze

n.e

Are you happy now that you have finally had a chance to leave the scars inside me?

Are you happy now for drowning me to the ocean of your sweet words, warm hugs, tender kisses and terrible hurt?

Are you?

n.e

You realize that loving me could have killed you, but you still do it anyway.

n.e

Do you know that
being in your arms
has became
my most favorite thing?

n.e

8 months ago...

"Should I wait for you?"
"No, just don't."
"But why?"
"Because I may never come back."

n.e

"We're not who we used to be.
We're just two ghosts standing in the place of you and me,
Trying to remember how it feels to have a heartbeat."

The strongest weapon is our 'made-up' thought that happens to be untrue in reality. It kills. It destroys. It shatters us into pieces.

n.e

Falling for you *****.
I cry my tears every night
just because you never really
know that I want you so bad.

n.e

I'm so far away from home
Missing you
Craving for your arms
and your lips too.

I'm so far away from home
I'm alone
I've never thought
I'd be standing on my own.

I wish I were back home.

n.e

Have you ever wished to never hear a truth that you never expect to be told?

Because I have.

I have been very heartbroken for the past few days at the fact that my boyfriend confessed his sin to me.

He cheated on me with four different girls while we're going on the third year of our relationship.

I appreciate his honesty, yet it kills me really. Loyalty is ****.

n.e

It was a blue night with a full moon.
The companionless wolf ran to the deep frigid woods.
He had nowhere else to go, but there, indeed.
He looked up to the dark sky, howling in pain.
The moon observed, catching him in sorrow.
She whispered, ‘My poor wolf, left behind by your pack’.
‘Who might that be, who might that be’ the wolf wailed.
‘I feel your woe, do not fret, let us find solace’.
Her reply turned the wolf whimpering.
‘Enough with the lament, I promise I am here for you’.
And every time the night is blue, the full moon appears,
sticking to the lone wolf in tears.

n.e

Here is a gun.
Take it.
Point it right to my chest.
Shoot it on me.
Let me die.
As dying would be the only option for me to heal.

Can't stand this cruel world.


n.e

My biggest regret
was waiting for you,
when you don't
even notice
my presence.

n.e

She is drowning and
he will never find her.

She is dying and
he will soon lost her.

n.e

"Loneliness forced me to be my own bestfriend."

As you want to see me dead,
come see my dead body,
buried at the cemetery
near your house.
And know,
my tombstone
is the abandoned one.

n.e

I was shattered in pieces
until you stood up
to find the lost pieces
he threw away
and merge them altogether.

But most importantly
you are the last missing piece in me
which completes me
so perfectly.

And I thank you for that.

n.e

I'm standing on the lowest point of my life where everything breaks me down.

n.e

Tonight,
I can feel my body shaking
and my mind rumbling.

Have you ever wanted
to weep everything out
but you just can't?

Perhaps,
I've been hurt
for infinite times
'til I become strong enough
to face everything
that will tear my soul apart.

The road might gets rough,
the going might gets tough
but still... you have to
stay strong, soul.

n.e

As I open my eyes
I realized you're not there
And I am dead.

n.e

Hi, sky
Why are you crying so hard?
You're even bringing up your old friends,
the storm and the thunder

It seems like you could feel what I'm feeling now
But you do not need to emphatize myself

I want you to be happy
Not to be sad
and disappointing like me
You won't let anyone down,
will you?

n.e

"Because my love for you
is higher than words,
I have decided to fall silent."

Until now,
I remember that day;
when the fire was lit,
the trust was betrayed,
the argument was perpetual,
and the ego won over the love.
We had no doubt.
It was the kind of farewell that we longed for.

n.e

I'd describe myself as the protagonist who is often mistaken as the antagonist one.

n.e

I've been waiting for you
To say those three words
That could change our lives
When me and you
Will become us...

n.e

You feel like hell,
and I don't quite like it,
yet I still want to suffer.

n.e

It is not you who I miss, it is us.

At 2 when we were woke.
Talking about the future and things;
How you wanted to be a magnate,
and I'd be your #1 supporting system;
How we'd build a nice home on top of the mountain;
How we'd travel to Turkey,
riding air balloon, kissing near the sky;
And how we'd make love at Maldives, enjoying every scenes.

It is not you who I miss, it is us.

At 3 we were still woke.
Telling you how my day was.
I complained a lot of things.
I cried, not knowing how to control.
You were there, you put me up.
"Sweetcheeks, it is going to be fine."
I believe I am going to be fine,
until you're slowly fading away,
and now us.


n.e

The furthest I've been away from you is here.
We're close, yet you're so out of reach.
We're near, yet you're running far.

n.e

I don't mind
losing those
who I call home,
as for now
I am my own home.

n.e

As I travel back
To the memory lane of ours
I witness what beauty was
It was you holding me
When everyone let go
It was you keeping me
When everyone gave up
It was you serenading me
When everyone shouted
Now that you're gone
I guess I'll never know what beauty is

n.e

Through all these empty nights
And the feeling of distant
I hope you know, I am fine
I will find my own color
In the midst of grayness
I will show you my shine
Though we drown in the darkness
I will stop looking for you
Seeing that myself is enough

n.e

What's love without sacrifice?

It's nothing,
but tears.

n.e