I have thought about your soft breezes
Edging along the curve of my jaw line
Like soft snow drift whispers
While the sun sits midway
I hope to put you up with words and smiles
Swing in your mind's hammock to pass the summer day
I know no other way to show you
How even your broke down barn doors
Give me shivers
I'd even help you paint them
A fresh coat on those aged timbers
I want to breathe you in
Chase your homegrown fumes
You'd fill my jar with moonbeam sweetness
Give us a taste, won't you?
You've got this thirsty girl wanting
Down on grass stained knees
Pour us both a swallow
Share a sip with me?

I can't go for a walk alone outside the home when I am upset
Because I am a girl
I can't wear dresses of my choice
Because I am a girl
I can't give my opinion in my laws
Because I am a girl
I can't go for study outside my hometown
Because I am a girl
I can't travel alone in transports
Because I am a girl
I can't enjoy openly
Because I am girl

I am not independent
Because I am a girl
Sometimes I think that I am a criminal in jail
Because I am a girl
*I wish either I was not born or became the victim of female foeticide!

You take me so high
I taste stratosphere
Sitting coldly aloof inside these midnight lungs
The deep, heavy ache of a bad drug
Better than ***, sweeter than honey
I cannot say no to that smile
Lips curving around my lace trimmed edges
Running gets me no where
Turning away leaves me numb
I just keep coming back
*One. More. Taste.

Southern, sweet like honey heart housed in Northern mountains
Flat plains saturated with cranberry bogs
I could feel your laughter
The cool, calm wind ever after
You may have been a weeping willow
Letting me pull gently at your boughs but
I could have braided you into my Valkyrie helmet
Strong wings made of courage thunder
Holding together what little you could piece together
I did not mind
We are all just raw edges one way or another
I miss your words
How they would draw and stretch my heart like taffy
Wrapping up sweet and tight what we hold so dear
The definitive search for the inevitable, the divine, the one
I only have what I saved
For with one button you didn't just fade away
You were gone

I have been led to my darkest of moments
By hallways lit with the brightest of lights

When your tears fell on that fire
Sizzling their last cry
It was a bitter sunrise
That I swallowed to gain some sort of balance
Too full now
Unable to tilt one way or the other
In the in between
I follow
Haunted by the taste of your smile's memory
My fingertips curve softly around pieces of paper
With your eyes gazing back
I would rather I could visit a grave
Then carry you around encased in stone
Those wishes of yours...leave me cold
Marble holds my warmth but not like flowers would
At least then I could feel you in their blossoms