I'd like it to stop now

I'd like to be done

Ive decided I don't like hurt

I've decided that you burn

Those years ago
I thought you healed me
Closed away my anxiety.
I thought I needed you.
You told me you need me.
But I'm not your dog
I don't live for your pleasure.
Yes, I used to
But I think I've found clarity.
I can't live
With how you love me
I don't love
How you live with me.
I feel like we're not living at all
As I wait all day for one call.
But where the **** are you?
I DON'T KNOW.
You've broken my trust
Yet you still run the show.
What are our lives?
I wish I could love you tonight.
I WISH YOU WERE HOME
I WISH I WASN'T ALONE.
You've left me alone
You've left me wondering
    What is home?

Remember me
when you look at the stars
and think that
At least we have those in common

Remember that
I'll love you
For as many lifetimes over
As there are stars

Some things to think about
After I leave you

"I never should have let you
   Let me go"
-Rufus Humphrey

Bless the love in your heart
Bless the love in the world

Bless the love that burns brightly
Bless the love that never dies

To see beauty break
Makes you *******
And feel as if
You should be breaking too

I make myself forget
How much I miss you
Because if I'd let myself remember
I would be in constant pain
Writhing on the ground
Covered with tears.
I miss being happy with you.
God I miss you.
Jesus...I miss us.

It's the day you left
Im watching your car drive away
Yellow fading into the distanve
And I'm collapsed in the grass
Alone.
Our voices still linger in the air
I stare to the sky
And try not to feel.
But I can't help myself
And I start gasping.
Because I know what's beginning.
I know the hell we're about to go through.

IT'S UNFAIR
That two people
Can love like we do
And feel euphoria through a touch
Or even a glance
IT'S UNFAIR
Because the universe has dammed us
It gave us a flame like none other
IT'S UNFAIR
That we can't be together
IT'S UNFAIR
I don't get to love you to your face
IT'S UNFAIR
AND IT'S BREAKING ME

So every time I say I miss you
It's empty
Because if I ever let myself
Remember why I miss you
You'd hear nothing
But cries of pain
And aches of hurt.

I make myself forget
How much I miss you
Because if I'd let myself remember
I'd feel like how I do right now.

She is beautiful
but she can't see it
her eyes are clouded
by the fog of his
her heart is troubled
by the make of his

She's beautiful
but she hurts
every night her thoughts haunt
every day her eyes jaunt
of him
for him
But she is without him

Tears fill my eyes now
she's my light
but she's turned off inside
she's a barefoot summer
but she's wearing shoes

We all have that thing
and this is hers
I just pray
we all move past our things
   and those hims
One day