empty shell of a girl
insecure mess
who craves
diamonds
and pearls
finer things
she'll never get
or receive
from anyone
she disappoints
in life, in bed
insecurities
wrecked her
mind, brain
mad case
of sweet
misery
and pain

attachment is worse
than the aftertaste
of a disgusting drink
like mixing ketchup
with mustard
such a bad mix
makes you
want to
throw
up

she's so lovely though
she doesn't show it, no
she smiles a lot
but never opens up
she says a lot
but her words
are blank
i find it all
hard to read
can't analyze
or see what's
between
the lines
but i see
what's inside
a girl wanting
to show herself
for all that she is
and always was

used to see nothing but you
every time i walked outside
used to think of nothing but you
whenever 'our song' played
used to write about you
but hell, still i do
because i miss you
and how it used to be
we were once side by side
now we're barely here at all
the day i got lost in your love
was the day i lost myself
my self-respect, my pride
you became my world
you became my earth
you became a part
of my tragic heart
changed my outlook
on how i saw life
gave me a reason
to always smile
you made me happy
happier than i had ever been
and i became dependant
on our connection
as a source of inspiration
to keep going
to keep believing
to keep myself
from falling
worst thing is
it's all changed
we aren't us
this isn't you
this isn't me
we aren't a team
like we used to be
and it hurts so much
because i thought
true love conquered all
but unfortunately
love was my downfall