The days of my youth are being wasted

Spent with a man who will someday become
just
a

memory

He said "this song is my life"
It was by drake talking about exes
And reminicing and remembering
So I move my leg off of his leg and move to the other side of my bed

I want him to leave so I can be alone
I don't care if he'd call me
I'd turn off my phone
He doesn't love me
Its all pretend
Or maybe its all just in my head

There's no affection he really doesn't care
He's good at pretending
Maybe this is the end
Or just the begininng
Who really knows
But I know I love him
But he'd rather be alone

Where was he when I needed him?
Yeah, he was with her.
I told him delete my number and never to call
He was in love with her
So why did I fall?
Then they brake up and he comes back to me
A shoulder to cry on
A ***** to eat

I'm tired of feeling like I'm second best
I should be number one
I'm not like the rest
So why doesn't he tell me I'm perfect?
Or tell me I'm pretty?
We're back at square one
And I'm full of self pity

Maybe I'll leave
Maybe I'll stay
Doesn't matter
Who cares
I'll feel like **** either way

Waking up one day
And knowing its over
The blue sky
Is now grey
The waves in the ocean
Are floating away

And so are you

It will never make sense why my heart belongs to a man who will never love me back. The words he says are old replayed records that were once melodies, that belonged to her. He can hold me and love me all night long but when the morning sun arises and he wakes up by my side, he wishes it were her eyes that he could get drunk on. She is beautiful, with hair golden and long, and my hair is black to match my soul. I like drugs I pop a pill every now and then, and she gets high from the life she is blessed to be able to live. I will never compare to her, but no, I don't want to be her,


But he does, and it will **** me forever, especially when he leaves.

Your fingertips tickle my spine
Your hands caress my thighs
Youre kissing on my lips and my neck
Your eyes look deep into mine
But the truth is
you
will
never
Be in
love
with
me

I don't want to get high
I don't want to feel low
I don't want to feel pain
I don't want to feel nothing at all

I don't want to love jesus
I don't want to hate the devil
I don't want nothing at all
I don't want to know forever

I don't want to be a coward
I don't want to be brave
I don't want to fit in
I don't want to be strange

I don't want to die young
I don't want to live forever
I don't want to be normal
I don't want to be severed

I don't want the sunshine
I don't want to feel the rain
I don't want happiness
I don't want pain

I don't want to be with you
I don't want to be without you
I don't want to laugh
I don't want to sing the blues

I don't want you to cry
I don't want you to smile
I don't want you to forget about me
I don't want you to ask "why"

I'm always writing about the past
All the things that went wrong
All the things I could have done
Maybe that's why nothing has lasted
That's why I'm taking the time
To write about right now
This very moment
And the way I feel about you
So one day when its all in the past
I'll be able to read it
Instead of cry about it
I'll remember the times
In which great joy accompanied me
And when pain seemed to flutter away
I feel safe
I feel a little less useless
I feel the sun shining
I feel the moon beams
I feel that life is much better
Outside of my sleep
It was an abrupt change that I never got used to
But I didn't have to
Because the second I felt less lonely
Was the second my eyes began to open
No more long nights with men who don't care
Who's names I'll forget in the morning
No more empty beds
No more tears shed
But if they fall down my face
I know you're here to dry them
Oh how nice it feels to have you lying next to me
And to awaken to your face everyday
And when love is made between us
The passion is so strong
I could cry
Who knows if we're in love
Love is not my thing
And neither is it yours
But I can't help but fall
Everytime you make me laugh
All the things that we've done
All the places that we've been
Its just the beginning
Of my wildest dream
I'm not promising forever
And neither are you
Tomorrow is a million miles away
So right now I'm fine soaking in the happiness you've brought to me
Even if tomorrow you're gone

Its a hot summer
But my heart is still cold
I always wanted a lover
Or maybe just someone to hold

I could live in the sunshine
And still be freezing
I've heard every line
None of the words have meaning

But on my darkest nights
You were always right here
You'd spark a fire for light
And open up a beer

We'd talk all night
We'd get drunk on eachother
I was no longer in fright
I was no longer troubled

Its like the calm after the rain
Or the smell of the sea
You got rid of my pain
And set me at ease

Maybe you'll be gone tomorrow
But you're here today
You lessend all my sorrows
So I hope that maybe you'll stay

We all say things we know we don't mean
Maybe I should just speak for myself
But I've come to the conclusion that even though we have different blood, we're still put together with the same pieces, just in different arrangements
I realized this when he talked about her to me
The way I talked about him to them
We spoke with words created by pain
Simply wishing that if we spoke them out loud instead of keeping them inside
Maybe they wouldn't feel so cold
But the words were almost as cold as the nights in december
When I'd sit around waiting for your letters
Wishing for a call because his voice would always heal me
This was no way to live,
But it didn't matter,
I was satisfied just seeing him in my dreams
He had no clue that when I looked at him my body went numb
And all I could imagine when I closed my eyes
Were his hands in my hair
And his lips on my neck

While I'm sitting in the sun shine
I can't help but think about the times it would rain
Because you were by my side then
And I wasn't in so much pain

He made me hate myself even more than I already did
If he knew how much power he had I bet he could **** me
And right when I thought I could breathe again I was plunged back into the water where I was left to sink but expected to swim
Its easy to think its all an overreaction
Maybe even an obsession
But I can't help but think of you everytime the sun shines
But also when its raining
Days were always so gloomy
But that's how you liked it
There's never been a purer soul to walk this earth
Yet also the most evil demonic human who put my heart on full blast
And then shut it down
Singing was always too cliche
Poems were all the same
But you loved when I'd play the piano
And hated when I'd cry
Most the time you were the reason behind it
You were the cause of my greatest dowfall
And weren't there to pick me up
You'd always sit with a cigarette in your mouth
And a distant look in your eyes
I remember when nights were cold and you'd steal the covers
And when I was almost drunk and you drank the rest of the jack
I was always left high and dry
You were always wanting to be left alone
Love was always blooming
You decided to step on the flowers
And when the stars were out and I'd look out the window you'd close the blinds and turn off the lights
And The time comes when you realize what's good and what's bad
You finally understand why happiness has not reached you yet
And when its time to say goodbye
Its also time to say hello
Time will pass by
your time will come

my heart sinks down
when i look back on all the wasted time i spent
solemnly on you
solemnly on us

i read all the things that i wrote about you
and it kills me
that much love, that much emotion,
all gone
where did it go?
cant i ever get it back?
please, dont tell me this is it
dont tell me it is over
if this is the end, let me start it over again

There was a fire raging within my heart
every ounce of feeling and passion
belonged to you, i was numb and felt only you
I saw this world
In the sunshine
I felt the earth spinning
Everything became so beautiful
I could never thank you enough for that

Time and distance separated our souls
and the one whole we once were
broke off into two
now its just me
now its just you

Something so strong broke down over time
and now you are no longer mine

you have fallen for someone new
you said you never loved me at all
i know thats not true

the love that we sparked
was so intense we could do anything

anything except keep it burning

your'e so far
you're gone forever
There's no way it could work out
thats why im so bitter

we'll both move on
you already have
but i want to thank you
for the short time that we had
And the love that you showed me
you can't ever take it back

And in my times of despair
When the darkness crept throughout the air
You were the one who guided me
You were the wind beneath my wings
And now, as I imagined, all of it backfired
Everything you said wasn't true
You turned out to be a liar
You were once the stars who calmed me
Now you're just drunken campfire stories
I tell the story of you and I
Sometimes I get choked up
Sometimes I cry
I hope she treats you well
She will, I can already tell
And I'm sorry I'm not what you dreamed of
I just wanted to give you my love
But it wasn't meant to be
Our love wasn't strong enough
I wish this didn't hurt
****, this **** is tough.

The songs that reminded me of you now remind me of him
And instead of crying,
I now can sing

Songs that he played
That you use to hate
Now are your favorites
Because he is gone

I'm tired of waiting around
Each day passes and I'm growing closer to my grave
And the sad thing is

I haven't even began to live yet

He doesn't know all the words
To every led zeppelin song
So he doesn't sing along with me
While I'm belting out the lyrics
He doesn't idolize jim morrison
He doesn't love stevie nicks
He doesn't listen to johnny cash
He doesn't feed my mind
He can't tell me something
That I don't already know
He doesn't bite his nails
Or lick his lips
He doesn't have long hair
That I can twirl around my finger
He doesn't know
how much I adore my mom
He doesn't know
How much my father has hurt me
He doesn't know
I live solemnly for my siblings
He doesn't know
That I cry at night
Because I hate my appearance
He doesn't know
The little things that make me laugh
He doesn't know
That the shawshank redemption
Is my favorite movie
He doesn't know
That I hate wearing shoes
He doesn't know
Where I've been
Or where I want to go
He doesn't know
i'm a big fish in a small pond
and i'll never make it in the ocean
He doesn't know
all I ever wanted
was to be loved and taken care of

He doesn't know

He's never going to know

But you know

You know

All the words

to every led zeppelin song

to whoever is now holding his hand, with your fingers intertwined with his, maybe fitting together perfectly
like puzzle pieces, maybe you were the missing piece, so stay where you belong.
to whoever is now lost in his eyes, so far gone, so far away, in a place bigger than the sky, don't blink because you don't want to miss the twinkling stars
to whoever is now kissing his lips, creating sparks and feeling high, you are tasting something far sweeter than sugar, don't ever pull away don't ever remove your lips from his, you'll be left with a bitterness and crave the flavor of his tongue
to whoever is now making him laugh, you are hearing the music of an angel, stay speechless don't say a word, just soak in the sound of happiness and continue to make him smile
to whoever is now his world,
please,
just never stop spinning, keep him dizzy, and never let him go.

If you are lucky
Sometimes before you die
You figure out your purpose

You realize why you are breathing.

Some still say life is a waste

You live you die and who knows
What's next

But while living you can't truly live
Unless you're living for something

In my case,
There's one reason
And one reason only
That I'm alive
That I'm trying
That I'm sane

There are these 6 kids
All younger than me
All look up to me
My very own blood

Everyone of them have been
Through hell and back
Have seen what none should have
They're mentally stronger
Than any I know of

They are the reason I get up in the morning
They are the reason I stay in school
They are the reason I stay away from the drugs that have caused the downfall of my family

They are the reason I'm alive.

And in living for them,
My only goal is to make them proud
Show them that if I can do it
They can do it.
I'm here to somehow make things seem okay
To make them feel safe
To make them know how wonderful they are
To make them feel loved

If I didn't have them
I wouldn't be who I am today
I'd like to think I was put here
To save them

But in all reality,
They were put here
To save
Me.

He never asked me to write about him,
That's why I do.
He never expected much from me,
But he did hate
When I didn't say goodnight
Before I went to sleep.
& I hated how I couldn't find
A **** thing
to hate about him.

I do  hate
that I don't
hate him.
I do hate
That he
Didn't say goodbye that night,
Before he decided to leave,

& I don't even think I said goodnight to him
that night
Before I went to sleep

I was chasing a butterfly
In a field abundant with flowers.
I tried to catch it,
But it flew away.
And even at that young age
I was already too familiar
With things
not intending to
stay

I've known him
For less than a month.
I can count on one hand
How many times I've seen him.
But with all truth,
his face has not left my mind.

But how could someone
Who I hardly know
Steal my breath so quickly?

Maybe its the way he laughs throwing his head back
Maybe its the way he sings led zeppelin songs at the top of his lungs
drumming on the steering wheel while driving
Maybe its the way he held me,
Tight in his arms
I felt so safe
I could be anywhere in this world
But all that seemed to matter
Was the way he'd look into me
No words can describe the way I felt while in his arms
Entangled in eachother
And a million blankets and pillows

He told me too many times
That I was pretty
I denied it everytime
I explained that I'm an insecure
Mess
But by the end of that conversation,
I agreed to take out my hair extensions
And makeup.
No one has ever gotten to me
So deep.
And just by the way my body trembled
When we kissed,
And the way he looked
With his shirt off,
His body, pure art,
With a cigarette
Hanging out of his mouth,
Oh I never wanted anybody
so bad before.

I've been numb for quite some time,

I forgot how it feels

To feel

I forgot what it feels like

To be left completely speechless  

I forgot what it feels like

To breathe

Sometimes I find myself
Wondering why
You never really gave me a chance.
There were always other places
Other faces that you needed to
See.
I just thought maybe
Instead of you leaving,
You could have stayed long enough
To tuck me into bed
But then again I guess I'm too
Greedy
I'd rather you have stayed
the night
I could plug in my christmas lights
light a million candles
And open my window
So the moon beams shine in
And we could lay and embrace
And with my head on your chest
I could listen to  my favorite song.
We could be silent
We could talk until morning
We could star gaze
We could dream
Just as long as our hands are
Intwined
And my hair is falling across your
Chest.

But the sad thing always is ,
either way,
I'll be waking up in the morning
And the candles
all blown out
The lights unplugged
The window and curtain closed
My hair falling across the pillow
And spaces that were meant to
Be occupied by the warmth of
Your body are left unfilled

So I guess what I'm saying
Is that I've felt emptiness
Take ahold of me
The same time you
dissapeared from me.

You could have stayed

You should have stayed

I wish you stayed

Long enough to tuck me into bed

he reminds me
of my father
of a ship sailing on the sea
of the sun
of the moon
of the leaves on the trees
he reminds me

of all the things that will leave

He is here
To ease my pain

But closing a window
Doesn't stop the rain

He always seemed to remind me
Of my favorite color

Addiction is real
I've witnessed it all my life
Its swimming within my family's blood
Most get addicted to a substance
Such as alcohol or h

I was too smart to ever fall for addictive drugs
Since I've seen all the damage they do

But everyone is ****** up
Everyone has issues
Everyone has something they're
Strung out over

Mine happens to be you

Love me like the snowflakes
Falling on top of the trees
Love me like the cool calm
Winter breeze
Love me like the butterflies
That float around like bees
Love me like the rivers
Love me like the sea
But most importantly
Love me for me

I stopped writing poems
Once you stopped writing me letters

I stopped naming my songs
Once you stopped saying my name

I stopped soaking up the sun rays
Once you stopped being my sunshine

I stopped being positive
Once you were positive you had to go

I am living
No doubt that my heart is beating

But between you & I
I just don't feel alive

Trying to move on
From something I never even got to call my own
Something I never even got to adore

I wanted to give him my love
It was meant for him
But he left before I even had a chance
To ask him to stay for a little while

Maybe he just never wanted love
Maybe that's why he had to go
Maybe that's why he should have stayed

I can no longer bear to see you within my dreams

So instead I'll stay awake until the morning sun arises and I see the light peeking through my window

Then again,
I find myself all through the night
Writing songs
pretending they're not about you

It doesn't matter what I do though
That's the thing

Awake or asleep

What's on my mind
Is still always you

For some strange reason
Underneath my hard outer layer
Deep down in my core
I ache to feel
The thing called
Love
A mere emotion
That blinds you from reality
A mind altering
drug
Give me it
I crave it
I need it
Before my body begins to crumble
Before my breath begins to fade
Before my blood runs dry

Before its too late
Before my heart turns cold
Before I'm too numb
to truly
feel

He came off having a tough exterior
As most men do,
And when I traced my finger tips
Along his back,
I could feel him shaking.
He is numb.
& I'm here to make him feel.
Maybe he will like the way affection feels.
Maybe he will like the way I say his name.

I say, "tell me something"
He seemed uneasy.
So I touched his hand softly  
And he glanced into my eyes
& he spoke of his demons that haunt him,
And the secrets burried deep inside
His frozen heart.
I just sit & listen.

He spoke of the past;
All the betrayale of trust
And broken promises.

These are all familar things to me
I know dissapointment & lost trust
Like the back of my hand,
But I say not a word,
My ears do the talking.

"You deserve better"
I tell him,
He knows that.
But you can tell he doesn't exactly
Believe it.

But I could feel him becoming less cold.
The emptiness he had
Is now being filled,
So I continue to touch him,
Until he's completely filled up,
Emptiness is a waste of space.

Oh, how he craves love.

So we give ourselves to eachother
Skin on skin
The most expressive, in depth
Way to say
1000 words lined with 1000 emotions
Without even opening your mouth.


We lie together,
And drift off into the dream land,
And I rest my head on his chest
And feel the beating of his heart.

I hope he wasn't expecting
To awaken next to me in the morning,

Because I won't be there.

I'm off,
Onto the next,

Still searching for the man
Who will fill me up
Who will melt the ice of my heart
Who will make me feel
Who will give me love
Who will listen

& Who will be by my side

Even when the sun rises.

I'm simply just too numb
I can no longer feel pain
My heart was once located within my chest
And it would beat
To a song implanted
in my body and my soul
forever
I still do recall the melody vaugely
Sometimes I wish I could hear it
Just one more time
Then maybe I could get some sleep  

Where my heart was once located within my chest
Is now nothing but a hallow storage
Keeping and holding possession of a stone
A stone that is cold as ice
A stone that is as tough as metal
A stone that was once a heart
That was as fragile as a piece of glass
But someone dropped it
And what a mess it did make
And it was left on the ground
With no one to ever attempt to
Clean it up, fix it
No one has the time
To put the pieces back together
Plus the cracks would remain
And surely fall apart again
And no one has time for puzzles

And once broken and empty
That storage in my chest was hallow
Hallow enough
You could hear echoes
But there was no sound
The silence engulfs
There was no longer a heart beating
And most importantly,
There was no longer a reason to care

So the stone remains
In the exact place it was mounted
Still just as cold
Still just as hard
Still just as silent

But I still vaugely remember
The rhythm of the beating
Of my heart before it was broken

Play me that melody one more time
Turn this cold stone into
A million little pebbles
And place them in a jar
And dump them into the sea
For the heaviness in my chest
Is weighing me down
I've forgotten what it feels like
To feel
Play me that melody one last time
And make it echo throughout the
Emptiness of my body

Make me feel
Make me feel love
Before its too late

"lose me"
he said
the last words he'd ever speak to me

but i'm already lost within him

and now i'm lost without him

When I hear his name
I try to hide the excrutiating pain
Deep within me
That's bound to spill out in a way
creating an eruption of
unexplainable and uncontrollable emotions
I try to cover up the way I feel inside
Just like the way I cover up the way I look
On the outside
All I know is nothing really works
Whether it be xanex
Or a tube of concealor
Nothing stays hidden forever

There's one place
Where the rain washes away all pain
But also soaks and drowns you
Where the breeze flows softly
through your hair
But also makes you lose your breath
Unable to catch it again
Where the sun shines on your face
But also burns your skin
Where the light never dims
Which keeps you from sleeping at night
Where you're holding
the world in your hands
And you realize it is only
but a grain of sand
Where everything that makes you high
Also makes you feel so low
Where what makes you happy
Is also the cause of your downfall
Where the flowers bloom
But also die before they can be admired
Where time heals the pain
But also where time just faded love
This place is where I'm at
I'm stuck here
Yet I belong here

His hands aren't as big as yours
And his eyes are a different shade of brown
But I usually see him only at night time
So I can't really tell

His lips just aren't as sweet as yours
And his kisses don't get me high
I look at him and I'm still on the ground
But when I look at you
I'm flying, I can touch the sky.

His voice doesn't give me chills
His words don't give me closure
I'm laying right next to him skin on skin
But its you that I wish I was close to

There's no emotion
There's no connection
Into your heart
Is where I need directions

I can't seem to get to you
I can't seem to make you smile
I seem to hang around too long
Even though its not worth my while

He doesn't get to me like you do
He can not heal the pain you caused
Now you're gone forever
Onto better things
The best thing in life
I have lost

Nothing hurts like
Being shot into the reality
Of not being loved
By the one you adore
The only one you want
The one you'd set yourself on fire for
Or drown in the sea for

Oh how he made my bones crack
And my heart slow down
When he told me to go
For I'm not the one who makes
Him smile
So mine surely faded
And will not return until he does

I'm tired of holding up my head
When it surely belongs resting
on his chest
I'm tired of playing this untuned piano
Until my fingers are numb
As my tears stream down my face
And form a puddle on the keys

I'm tired of this agony
And the weight of heartbreak
Weighing me down

I can hardly breathe
And I'm now left shattered on the ground
And now I realize
I should have caught myself
And I never would have fallen

she's young
but shes been through it all
witnessed heartbreak
before her heart was completely sown

she was let down
before she could fly
she didnt even live yet
but was already left to die

she is misunderstood
no one truly gets her
its like she is possessed with a disease
that has yet to have a cure

she shines like the sun
but she feels left in the darkness
she gets treated unfair
people are so heartless

she has much anger
burried deep down
but on the girls face youll never see a frown
she is a princess,
she's just missing her crown.

she has never been given what she truly deserves
people are just so irritable
and say she gets on their nerves

but she does not do a thing wrong
she just tries to live
just tries to sing her song

no one gives her the time of day
while she's in the middle of speaking
it seems as though everyone walks away
no one gives her the time of day
even though she has so much to say

Another night
sneaking through the window
In the early morning hours
Same **** different night
A different boy almost every night
But what stays the same
Is that I'm always pretending he's
You

I don't think she will ever over come
The hatred she has aimed solemnly towards
One person and one person only

She believes hate is too heavy to carry
Yet she drags it along
And throws it over her shoulder
And it gets heavier each time she
Looks into the mirror

She sees the beauty in
Everyone and everything
Except in her own soul

She knows beauty is within
But her heart is black
Just like the makeup on her eyes

What's on the outside
Doesn't please her
She can't stand to see the skin on her face
Without makeup layered on

Even then
She still is a disgrace

The amount of time and love I spent on you
Has surley been wasted
And it angers me so
I could have used that love more wisely
Maybe on myself

I let you in
And with you,
I felt safe
I felt warm
I felt as if I was at home
When I was wrapped in your arms
Life suddenly felt less cruel
And each sunrise
Gave me hope for the future
Our future
Our eternity
But I let you in,
And that's where I went wrong
I trusted you
When I never trusted a soul in the world
And in the end
It backfired on me
You never meant what you said
And here I am left alone
Looking like a fool
I let you in,
I should have never let you in

How pathetic is it
That everytime I hear the roaring
Of a diesel engine
I turn around to glance
Secretly hoping it may be you
But you sold your truck,
And you no longer come out
To this part of town.

How pathetic is it that everytime a sad song
Creeps up on me
On the radio
My heart begins to pound
And the sound of your voice
Swirls around in my brain
Like a never ending vortex
And I'm reminded
Of everything you once said
The song may be over,
But I still remember it word from word
And I always seem to find it
Still stuck in my head

How pathetic is it
That still to this day
You're the only soul that's ever gotten
To me
So deep you pierced my heart
Your mark is within me forever
And it never will heal
The scar will forever be noticable


How pathetic is it
That when I lay down at night
I replay the whole past in my head
I remember every word
Every detail
And the exact way you said my name
And If you said my name
One last time
I then could die a happy girl

How pathetic is it
That you control my every day
Yet I have not seen you in almost a year
And you are always there waiting for
Me
In my dreams
I just can't seem to escape from you
And once I awake
I'm left feeling as if a hole was punched
Through my chest
I feel so empty

Maybe tonight I'll be able to
Get you off my mind for a little
When my blood is flooded with alcohol
Even then,
You cross my mind and I feel
Myself wallowing in my own sorrow
Dreaming of the future we could have had
And wondering where it all went wrong


Its beyond pathetic knowing
I'll never get over you
Even though you're over me
And long gone
Never to return to this part of town

I'm pathetic and I'll admit it
Only because maybe you'll see
I need you
And come back and save me

I still think about you every single day
I hide the letter you wrote me
And the picture of us crumbled up
In my pillow case
I ripped them off my wall
But I just can't seem
To throw them away

I try my hardest to be so strong
I know the way you make me feel
Isn't right
Its so wrong
So why does your face come into my mind
Everytime I hear a sad song?
The days just pass by
And the nights are just too long

It just hurts the most knowing all
We planned for our lives together
Are now gone forever
And all the words you said to me
Are not important and won't be remembered

Ill forget
Ill move on
Ill try my best
to be strong

But Ill never forget the way you
looked at me with your brown eyes
Ill never forget how you'd tell me you loved me
Over and over at least a million times

Ill never forget when we made love
And how I finally opened up to you
Giving you all my trust

Ill never forget the rhythm of your heart
Ill never forget how you were the light in the dark

But I have to forget in order to move on
I hope that you'll stop me
Before I'm too far gone

Things will never be the same now
As they were
When we were young

When I first wake up in the morning
Its an instinct for me to think about you.
The picture of us to the right of my bed
And the letter you wrote me
Are the first things I see when I awake
From my dreams,
That also always involve you.
Throughout the day
I have constant reminders of things
That you do
Things that you said
And I sometimes see your face
On strangers wandering the roads.
On the nights when I'm
Exessively lonely,
I'll lay next to him and let him
Give his love to me
Just so I'm not so numbed
Just so I'm not so empty
And I'll close my eyes and imagine
Its your hands caressing me
And imagine
Its your eyes hypnotizing me.
Maybe I should have fought for you,
But I'd rather solve things with peace
So as if you were a dove in a cage,
Or a fish in a tank,
I realized it was not right to keep you
Trapped
So I set you free,
And now
an emptiness takes the place
Of where you once belonged.
Maybe I should have
Fought for you
But once I set you free
You were gone
In the blink of an eye
Forever out of arms reach

I told him to call me when he cares

So

I'm still sitting here, with my phone volume

Turned all the way up

But I'm left in silence