Brielle O'Brien

Brielle O'Brien Dec 2013

far away

At night
Instead of sleeping
I lie awake
Constantly weeping
Of better days
That I wish I was dreaming

Miles are just numbers
Numbers aren't that large
Don't believe me?
Just compare them to the stars
"Distance isn't real
Nomatter how far"

The stars and planets
Are free up in space
And here I am loathing
Aching to leave this place
I have no power
I have no say
I can't not just get up
And walk away
But I hope
You will find a reason to stay
Even if
I'm
A
Million
Miles
Away.

Brielle O'Brien Dec 2013

not even close to being done this

Some things
Are not forgotten
Even with time
Passing by
Like when I watched
At such a young age
My father drink and beat my mom
Simply because he "loved her"
My mom is an angel
Yet she was doomed from the start
Being a serious alcohol addict
Since age 15
Getting pregnant with me at age 16
She never knew true love
Her parents lives revolved around money
They showed no love
towards their beautiful daughter
They blamed her for being ****** up
But in all reality
It was all because of them
My mom wanted love
My dad gave her it
Thinking he was destined to fix her
But how could he fix her if
He was also broken?
My mom
Addicted to drugs and alcohol
Was in and out of rehab
Back when I was in middle school
I was so young and didn't understand
The concept and struggle of addiction
So I hated my mom
I believed she left me
At the time a girl needs her mom
The most
I was alone and had no one by my side
Some things are not easily forgotten
Like when I watched my mom
Cut her arms until she was bleeding on
The floor
When I watched her make herself throw up
When I watched her drink herself blind
These things
Are forever implanted in my mind

Brielle O'Brien Dec 2013

I never knew

I never knew what true pain was
Until I was seperated from you, the one I love
By many many miles
I never knew what true happiness was
Until I saw you walking towards me
And I running up to hug you
The day I was anticipating
I never knew what true love was
Until I spent those nights in your arms
Lost in your eyes
Time was nonexistent
I never knew what true caring was
Until you sat with wide eyes
Listening to every word I had to say
Until I had no more breath in my lungs
to speak
I never knew what it felt like
To feel safe
Until you held me and shut out my
Roaring demons from within
My deep dark soul
I never knew what true
Hopefulness was
Until you promised me
Eternity
Laughing
And loving
And living
with you;
Something for me to finally
Live for
I never knew
the
true meaning of living
Until I realized
I'd gladly die for you
So that you can live
I never knew.
I never knew
I never knew
Until I met you.

Brielle O'Brien Dec 2013

he

He was the blue sky
She was the rain
He was the sunshine
Who took away all her pain

She was the black sky
In the middle of the night
He was the brightest star shining Reasurring her
That it will be alright

She's an old untuned piano
With dust on the keys
But he sits down
And makes beautiful music from her
But she never ever will see

He was the smell
After the rain
She was like the seasons
Always eager to change

He tastes like cigarettes and jack
She is at war with herself
Ready to attack

He has the universe in his hand
The world in his palms
She has nothing to live for
She sits alone writing song after song

His soul is full of awe
His eyes are filled with wonder
Her heart is much too cold
Down her life it plundered

He is like a warm summer breeze
Setting all souls at ease
And she is like these cold december nights
Always
Chilling
Always causing a fright

Brielle O'Brien Dec 2013

¤

I never knew what love was

until I saw the way he looked at her.

Brielle O'Brien Dec 2013

e m p t I n e s s

"I'm only half without you"
This statement I don't exactly understand
Because its not like that for me.
Without you,
I'm the morning sky without the sunshine,
The nightime sky without the stars,
Dark, and lifeless.
Without you,
I'm the ocean,
But without the salty waves,
Just a bottemless pit.
Without you,
I'm a garden
Full of plants and flowers that refuse to
Bloom and grow
Without you,
I'm snow that melts away
I'm the leaves that change
I'm the seasons that fade away
Without you,
I'm the same as the time
Simply passing everyone by
With no real purpose
Just a reminder that it all runs out
As you can see,
Without you,
I
am
nothing.

Brielle O'Brien Dec 2013

for my best friend, my cousin.

Staying up until dawn
Out star gazing on the roof
Talking about what life had in store for us
Talking about things that have no proof
We'll never know
How we're going to die
But there's beauty in not knowing
When you have someone by your side
I remember the nights we would
Just cry
Reminicing on the past
All the things we had to leave behind
Or the nights when we'd get drunk
And have the best time of our lives
Went swimming naked in the creek
At three in the morning
Went down bad paths
Without any warning
Or those nights we'd take baths
In my parents room
Chain smoking all night
We were like flowers in bloom
Or the nights when we'd blaze
And eat and laugh
Dream about the future
Make jokes about the past
Or the nights when we'd talk about
Our ****** up family
We'd talk about how we'll never do what they've done
And You always had faith in me
The days spent out by the pool
The days we just spent sleeping
The memories that we shared
I'd always keep them
We've seen the same things
We've seen the pain heartaches brings

We've seen what most people never should
Have seen
We've both been ****** up on drugs
We've both been clean

We've both been happy
We've both been sad
We've both done what is right
We've both done what is bad

Without you
I don't know what I'd do
You saved me from myself
And I never even knew
But my eyes are open
And I could never thank you enough
You are everything
Anyone could want