4am
My bones are shaking
My heart is slowed down
The tears in my eyes
Are falling to the ground

My fingers lay softly on the piano keys
This is my very last plea

I can never find the words to say
So the music helps me drift away
Please baby please
Just tell me you'll stay

My heart is hollow
My chest is full of air
For I'd let all the blood in my body run dry for you
without even having a care

I'm wondering what you are doing and how you feel
But nothing really phases you
You're so strong
You're made out of steel

Unlike me
I'm as soft as clay
Mold me into something
That would make you wanna stay
And You can always have your way

There's shivers up my spine
The stars are never aligned
Because you and I
Are not side by side


So as I play the last notes
I feel as if instead of swimming
I'm just barley staying afloat

Maybe in my dreams you'll come visit me
And we can go drifting
Amongst the seas

There's a boy
Who I've always seen in my dreams
I never saw his face
But I knew he was where my heart belonged

Ever since I was a little girl
I've wished for him
I was afraid
I'd never find him

All I've ever longed for
Is the type of love
That only exists in movies
But I wanted it in reality

So I've searched
And found nothing
I've been left unsatisfied
And also broken hearted

But one day
The sun was shining
And I found the man
I'm was going to spend eternity with

It was so unexpected
But the moment I saw him
Time stopped
Like they say

I knew right then and there
That he was the man I'll one day marry
Even though I'm afraid of commitment

I was stuck in the darkness for so long
And he was the light
At the end of the tunnell

I've never had someone
Who has ever looked at me as
Something special
But he does

I don't know why though

He's beyond me
He's better than me
He deserves this whole world

I guess what I'm trying to say is
That I'm 17 years old
And I found the love I've dreamed of
For all my life
And now I have it
In the palm of my hands
I could never be more thankful

God gave me an angel
Who saved me from myself

I've never looked a man in the eyes
And said "I love you"
And meant it

But with every fiber of my being

I ******* love this boy
More than anything in this whole ******* world

And if I'm lucky enough

Ill get to keep him forever

I'm over you
You mean **** to me
So why do I constantly
See you in my dreams?
I'm moved on,
I'm head over heels in love with someone better
You're long gone & out of my life forever
So why did dream I was looking into your eyes?
Why within my dreams,
I finally didn't want to die?
Why is it that when I saw your face
My broken heart began to race
But that's not fair my heart does not belong to you
For every chance I gave you,
you blew
But then again
I always blame myself
Maybe its my fault you wanted someone else
But if I'm still mad at you,
Why do I see you in my dreams?
This is much more difficult than it even seems.
It felt so real it felt like the old times
It breaks my heart thinking
We had to leave it  all behind
Things could be different
If we both weren't so selfish
To fix the past would be my deep down wish
But I don't care
Atleast that's what I tell myself
But I do,
That's why my heart is in a jar
On the very top shelf
I tried more than once to fix things
But in doing so
Misery is all that it brings
I don't think I mind seeing you in my dreams
But once I wake up
I come apart at the scene

When I close my eyes before I go to bed

It's still your face

In my head