Visions, dreams, nightmares
They all deal with the brain
All of these images painted
To reflect on what is wanted
Dreaming to become something
Is just a lie, it gives false hope
Chances to succeed are slim
However, they still can be done
Visions are simply just pictures
Nothing more than a simple want
The brain makes you picture a want
However, visions just deceive the eye
Nightmares are an internal fear
Fear of supernatural possibly
Or just fearing life in any aspect
However, nightmares are a necessity
These dreams, visions, and nightmares
All have one thing in common, falsity
They produce a false hope or a fear
Hope of becoming happy, or fearing death
However, these false brain impulses
Just inflict pain in life, and can't be stopped

What if I just walked away
Left everything I love behind
A new start somewhere else
Maybe it will free my soul
What if I just left this cruel world
Would anyone even miss me
Not necessarily take my life
Just isolate myself from mankind
What if I just opened up my life
How I felt, what I felt, who I felt
Just tell everyone my deepest thoughts
Without a single worry about myself
What if I tried being more selfish
Caring only about myself from now on
Making sure I am happy before everyone
But that's not how I want to live life
What if I just changed as a whole
What if I could just change the world
To change my harsh world is a start
Maybe that will result in a better world

It all boiling over now
Nothing is enjoyable
All that I used to enjoy
Frustrate me even more
Everything frustrates me
I'm sick and tired of it all
I can't enjoy life like this
Just done with everything
I can't move on anymore
I can no longer be happy
Especially living this way
I'm frustrated and done
I'm sick and want it to end
I'm beyond the boiling point
And now I'm far from the edge
I must change myself. Now

I would like to say thank you
For helping me find myself
For dragging me out of the dark
For giving me a reason to live
You taught me important lessons
Like how to be happy in a relationship
Like how to make others feel truly special
Like how to simply be happy with myself
I was wanting to go see you again
Take time out of school and work
To go up there and see you again
But I won't if you don't want to see me
However, if you want, I can still go
Maybe we could go to prom together
Like we talked about a while ago
If that is still in any interest to you
I really want to keep talking to you
But if you don't feel the same way
I'm not going to change your opinion
We can stop talking for good if you wish
I just want you to know I'm happy for you
And I thank you for all that you did for me
I want to wish you the best in your future
And I hope this is not the last time we talk

I've had thoughts for the bad
And for the worse of my health
I've thought of many things evil
And for many things for the good
Thoughts of drinking alcohol
Or starting to do numerous drugs
Thoughts of dropping out of school
Or just leaving this town all together
These are a few of the bad thoughts
While there are a few signs of hope
There are thoughts of seeing her
Making a movie-like surprise occur
Thoughts of making people smile
Making sure their time is worth while
But through all of these many thoughts
Some have not crossed my mind
These are for the good and for the bad
Thoughts of suicide or theft never came
And neither have thoughts for myself
However, these are all thoughts or ideas
Most will not come true, especially the bad

I don't want to go to my prom
That is now a well known fact
However, I still want to go to one
Not my own, I want to go to hers
She is over a thousand miles away
And I want to be by her side that day
I have a brilliant plan lined up for it all
I will contact her school or her mother
Tell them what I am about to tell you
Say I want to fly up there for her prom
Surprise her, she will have no clue
See if I can get a special entrance
Just so I can get one special dance
I will fly there with a group of friends
And hope to make her happy as can be
However, there is only one flaw to my plan
She may not want to see me anymore
As she is currently with another guy
I'm just going to ask if she wants to go
If she says yes, I'll put the plan into action
If she says no, I'll drop it and let her go
I want this plan to occur, it will be perfect
Seeming like it comes out of a love movie
But it will hopefully be real life, my own life

The title says it all right now
I just really hope you're happy
Because I sure am not anymore
I'm upset, with you and myself
I'm not upset because I'm jealous
I upset that you lied to me directly
You told me it's started that night
Then I discovered it was two weeks
We talked about our personal lives
And a possible future together
Saying to me while still dating him
So I hope you're happy now "friend"
As you're making out with him at work
I sit at home lonely and cold hearted
But I don't know how I have a cold heart
As it feels like I no longer have one
But just be happy, I'll deal with myself
I just wish you would have told the truth
It would have been easier knowing true
But just be happy, don't worry about me
I'll be find in the end, which is now near