Beat down and abused by you
I've forgotten who I once was
I gave you everything
And you just took and took
Depleting me
I carried the flesh of our flesh
Within me
I carried the weight of our love
Inside my body, she grew strong
I wore the wounds you gave me
Deep inside
The only one who knows my pain
Has your beautiful blue eyes
When she calls out for you
And you're not here
I know all too well, what she will feel
I want to wrap my arms around her
Protect her from the world
I want to protect her from you

We as a culture/society/civilization. We **** and plunder the earth. We take advantage of her destroying her, and her natural resources. Caring not for future generations to come. Only thinking of the here and now, are we really so selfish! Does that really require questioning when all along the answer is known. We use her for our own gain, tearing into her rich dark flesh. Reaping the benefits of her bountiful splendor. Never  fully replenishing that which we steal away, and she in all her glory and unyielding strength selflessly cooperates. Bending but never breaking to our will. We pollute her, poisoning her rivers, her oceans, her lakes, her streams, her ponds and create stagnant pools of filth.  Our  sole contribution to the world is, nay, will be the ruin of us all. All the while, whilst we destroy her so seemingly infinite beauty she rewards us. With the edible fruition of her labor and clear, clean liquid from her ***** to quench our ever increasing thirst. And in return, to give thanks,  to  praise her we bury decay in her fertile womb. Only to later perhaps even decades so wonder even (perplex/ purport) as to why she is baron and cold. Buried under mounds of suffocating concrete  we take her for grantide. If ever she breathes a complaint we point the finger elsewhere. Never pausing to reflect on self and come to the  realization of  what we are doing to her to ourselves, to the generations yet to come to our lineage to our desendants, to our very lively hood. The question that really needs to be asked here is when did we begin to pride ourselves over that which has existed longer  than we could ever fully begin to fathom. That thrived despite our lack of existence and hopefully will again far after we have perished and all but ceased to have existed at all.

Kisses that fumble over lips
First loves embrace
Sweaty palms
Weak knees
Butterflies
Sober drunk
Sunrises will never compare
The moon would never be enough
The stars will never shine so bright as your eyes
They light up when they look into mine
I miss the hue
I miss the way I felt in your arms
I miss everything about you
Even the things I couldn't stand
I took our time together for grantide
I thought we had time
I fell when I wasn't looking
So caught up in things that didn't matter
I made you think you didn't matter
I recall fondly our first date
We danced as water cascaded around us
Dancing with us
You told me you couldn't figure me out
I don't even know who I am some days
I wanted you to figure me out
I wanted to be with you
I just forgot how to be myself
Somewhere along the way I lost myself
You found me
You lie to me so convincingly
I've never believed anyone when they told me I was beautiful
Until those words graced your lips
I tremble when your hands touch me
I breathe all of you in
You're leaving to start your life
I wish I could have gotten to know you better
But I chose to betray what we had
I ******* up
I am not so proud that I cannot admit it
I did this
I ****** this beautiful, amazing "magical" thing we had up
And for what?
He was never worth losing you

I want to love you
With a heart you don't think I real
Just so you remember how it feels to be loved

I want to give you things, that are not mine to give
I would lie, borrow and steal
If I could erase all that pain inside of you

You look at me, like there is something there
Something worthwhile, something good and honest and pure
And all I see is used goods, someone who has all but given up

You look at me with those beautiful, hazel eyes
Bearing your soul to me
I sold out a long while ago baby

You make me feel so **** much
I forgot how good it feels to be loved
But here I am, all bruised and broken

And there you are; so innocent, almost pure
Like I could be your everything
I want to lie down next to you, and never get up

I want time to stop for us
I want the world to melt away when I make love to you
Sweet whispers, grace those incredible lips

I am not worthy of this gift
I do not deserve to be worshiped, the way you worship me
I am not worthy of a love that redefines life

The way you redefine life for me
You let me do what I need to do, to feel alive to be here, present, happy
And I am screaming inside

Do you even hear my scream echo off the walls
Can you feel this pain, I feel it all but consumes me
The burden, I wear heavy on my heart

Can you see the pain concealed in my eyes
Do you have any idea the torment I am enduring
Is it my right to ask you to carry this weight with me, until I am strong enough to let go

Do you love me enough to be strong for the both of us
While I find my way back
From this long journey of wanderlust ?

Wet kisses dance across mouths, seeking something familiar in a strangers touch
You make me feel alive, in ways I forgot I could
I’m like a child with you, I feel innocent again
Don’t corrupt me, don’t violate me, I don’t want to regret this
I hate hands on my flesh, I hate getting wrapped up in someone else’s skin
I miss the days when I loved it, staying awake until dawn afraid it would end
When the world stopped, and all that existed was that moment of passion
I desperately want to feel like that again
I want love that takes the breath from my body, that consumes me alive
I want to eat, breathe, taste you on my tongue
I want to endure heartache, just to feel alive
I want colors to be brighter, i want food to taste better
I want so much oxytocin production, chocolate can never compare
I want to reach out to feel your warmth next to me
I want you, I'm just scared