Light creeps through the blinds
cascading over bodies intertwined in sleep
Dew shimmers on flora
As the sun rises and the night retreats
Pink and orange swirls of cotton candy clouds
break the horizon
Giving way to bursts of mauve and golden hues
I have never set eyes on anything as beautiful
As the earth waking
Save for perhaps a lovers face
Or the tide rolling in, in soft sea foam waves.

I am mesmerized by her beauty
She is everything I am not
She lights up a room when she enters
I envy her ability to captivate
She's so composed
Charming
Clever
Witty

I long to be as sophisticated
As she appears to be
Effortless

I wonder how I am able to so convincingly
Deceive

Why am I not able to deceive myself so easily
My facade is not a reflection of myself
She is everything I cannot bring myself to be