I wonder if I did
The right thing with you
Would you be here today?

Would you get bored,
Find something better and
Eventually walk away?

That's the mindset of someone
Who was told they weren't good enough
At a young age

I'd search the world
To find out who you really were,
Creat delusions of you caring
But not about how I look
Or what I'm remembered for

Just caring about me

And maybe you would have
If I never met him,
It's been a whirlwind for so long
At least your guessing game
Is as consistent as me
Ruining everything

Im consumed with this thought

This yearning of someone who cares

And in the end

If it isn't with blood

It doesn't exist

I wasn't good enough for my past

And now I just float,

Hoping to fimd a light of my own

Not a light to show me everything wonderful

That replaced me and everything

I could never be

Just a comforting light that is warm and says

This world would be so worthless without you

Even the strongest forms of religion
Gives up on lost souls

Curly hair set free long ago,
I wish them well

Lip rings and tattooed hands,
They aren't here to mend any fences

I'm a broke soul
Looking for a way home
I never worked good on my own

And I need something that doesn't care,
Something that passes me by but I feel it's there

I had a dream not so long ago,
New place and eating my ****** lunch
He comes up and asks if Im okay
I look like death past the decayed

Lost weight and eyes sunk in,
But from even the view point of him
I knew it was pure and good

That's all I have left for holding on
I would give up but I just can't
Find the way to let go

To stop everything

Hand tattoos

I remember it now

Hands and

I could show you what these hands do

You assume you're better

Are you sure?

I could snap you in half

If you'd like to grow some *****

Or maybe I'll look the other way

Because who even are you?

The equivalent of a gnat to my life

I'm replaceable and so are you