I want her to say
I love you
She used to speak
Those coveted words
She should, shouldn't she?
After all, she is my sister...

We were never meant to be
Not even when I said those words
"I do"

I went to the warf
Just to see your face
In the waves and water
But you're not here anymore

I'm desperately searching
For an ounce of permanence
In a world in which
Everything fades to nothingness

Almost twenty-one years ago
I came into this world
Screaming and crying, full of life
Today, I am beautiful and strong.
My life is not tainted by my past
For I forgive myself and move on.
I am warmed by twenty-one years
Stretching on like the marks on my skin.
I'm not skinny, good meals assured that.
But I am confident and happy.
I have accomplished so much
Over come a two decades of struggle.
Happy birthday to the woman I am.

Click click click
Send
Ten minutes later
Read
Three hours later
Still nothing
How frustrating
It's our cycle.

Do you ever feel like you're losing someone?
The slow slow growing distance.
Jumping from a crack to canyon.
How does this even happen?
One moment we are talking until midnight,
And nexthing I cant see more than a string of read texts.
I dont try to push people away.
It just sort of... Happens.
We have big castle plans one minute
And piles of sand the next.
How do you say I love you
When I cant even find the you.
Yes. It's a slow fade,
Like finger tips tracing their way to the numb spot in your heart.
But maybe, in the whispers that have ceased,
In this silence, I'll find something worthwhile.