We have so much in this world
And yet we see only that which we lose
We only devote attention to emptiness
Where those people used to be within
Yet, they are gone from your heart
So that part of you freezes over
And if left to itself for too long
This ice spreads like a disease
Destroying all you hold dear
Capturing it as a single meager memory
One as fragile and beautiful as your life
Preserving them inside makes you cringe
You can't handle the truth of it all
That they never left you alone
You left them, for your own devices
And here you lie now, broken
A shattered mess of perfection

That smile, oh that smile,
Forever haunting my brain
That smile, oh that smile,
Marking me with it's glowing stain.

Willingly, I walk slowly,
Through torturous flames
Towards my goal, so daily,
Playing any wicked game.

That smile, oh that smile,
Worth any lasting pain.
That smile, oh that smile*,
Drives me utterly insane.

If you knew what that smile
Creeping up on your face
Does to make me stay awhile
In hopes, you, my arms will enlace.

That smile, oh that smile...

Taught of our scars
And life’s many pains
She will be lifted beyond
Our tattered remains

Brought into this life
As a gift from above
She saves us for good
As a product of love

Knowingly filled to the brim
Tears crumpled within
Beneath the pain
You continue to swim
Onward towards the light
Shining deep down inside
That black circle of vision
Shows your future is bright
And nothing can drown you
In this tide of mayhem
Ripping through it all
While you stay true

Fog, thick as blood, surrounded me
Blinding and menacing as it swirls
Containing the hate and pain
Forced upon my soul, unfurled

Through my smokey confines
A light seemed to flash
A trick my mind creates?
Or could it just be the ash?

With a sudden rush of air
The fog was swept far, far away
In its place were shadows too tall
Making me give up today

A hand reaches for me
But, I am too scared
It is shrouded in darkness
Like the eyes that stared

But, what is this?
The hand reaches my chin and lifts
I look up to see a strange sight
An unexpected and loving gift

Friends now surround me
They were never menacing or dark
So, I am not really alone
For my life renews from their spark

Focus. Focus. Please just focus.
The words don't ******* heal.
I can't seem to concentrate
On anything that's real.

Spinning in this blackness
I'm running all alone
You claim to be beside me
as I break my heart of stone.

As the shards fall all around
like the hope I held inside
You try to sweep it up
Like a secret we must hide

I knew I chose my fate correctly
I showed you who I was that day
The demons that I do carry
Keep all who might love at bay

It fills my soul,
Ever growing in essence.
Glowing like a coal
It enlightens my presence.
Music is my whole.

Why do I try so hard?
Can't I see the great
That surrounds the bard?
Erasing this slate,
My happiness is unmarred.

So I place these fingers
Upon the metal notes.
Creating music that's deeper
Than any story I wrote;
Sending me to my rapture.

I smiled at the thought of the game.
You ran (as I whispered your name),
Stumbling, whimpering, down the corridor,
And slipping along that sticky red floor.

My salty tears, oh what salty tears.
My salty tears will stain your ****** cheek.

You lay there barely alive
On the other end of my .45.
What’s that look on your face for?
I shot your gorgeous leg, *****.

I shot, I shot, I shot.

Will I be alone?
Was she a clone?
Will it tear through my bones?
Will I, I will be alone.

My salty tears, oh what salty tears.
My salty tears did stain your ****** cheek.

This road in my sorrowful life
It was paved with good intentions
Built upon the ground of strife
It holds secrets I never mention

Can't we just forget this world?
Tell it to lose us for the night
Becoming close with souls unfurled
Lye inseparable in moonlight

This can't happen anymore
For this road leads me astray
It still tears and rips to the core
I lost you in most every way

The hacking at your soul
Causes a deep, deep hole
That you can never fill.
You just wish, on your sill,
That the decision was made
And then there is no need of blade.
Why must your soul be riddled,
Mine in kind? Both just fiddled
With emotions all through life,
Causing our own pain and strife.
We never see inside
Only the other’s side.
We show all the flaws
That cause us to pause
Long enough to save each other;
Until one collapses and smothers
Out their light.

Mysteries drive us
Insanity makes us
We live in chaos

But onward we march
Into the depths
The black and lonely dark

Forever searching
Trying to brave through it all
Unsure of the next moment

Losing all control
Why even care
Feelings not returned
Left oh so bare

Yet no one sees
My dark road
Creatures swarm
Alone I never am
As I stumble on
Through a murky world
Air toxic to all
Shattering hopes
And killing dreams
******* up all
Never asking forgiveness
Always cutting
Breaking hearts and bones

I'm lost in emotions
No where to run
Surrender to this world
Started with a gun

Demons are my friends
I see your spine break
as it quickly bends.
I told you, it was the ******* end.

I live in this ****** hole
You didn't see it coming?
Me ******* your soul.
I told you, I am the ******* end.

Death am I, so I must be
Warm, dark, and flowing
is your blood onto me.
I told you, I was your ******* death.

I never ******* lose
You tried to beat me and all you did
was make yourself ooze
to death in my frozen arms.

I told you, I am *every ******* end.

Thick as mud
Pouring from my soul
******* tainted blood

Don't you smell the fear
Coursing within me
Causing me to tear

All these monsters who rule
Shove me past the brink
With words for broken tools

One day you'll see
Within dark dreams that
This world is not for me.

This feeling, so hot,
Coursing right through me.
I hope they simply rot
As their red sets me free.

I cut for the red.
Just crying for pain.
I'll wind up dead,
If not, past insane.

You helped me once,
Then forgot to stay near.
After all these months,
Why'd you leave me here?

Blue , now falling fast
Towards the never ending dark.
Trying to forget my past
As red and blue mix, so stark.

As I let these colors fall
On my soul's own abyss
From heights far too tall
No heart sees I'm amiss.

Forgotten, cold, alone I gasp
For air that left me too.
If only our hands would clasp,
You'd finally help me through.

Now the red is slow
And all blue is gone.
All since you went to go,
I've become a slaughtered fawn.

The colors are gathered
Across my body and floor,
In artwork to be treasured
By you forever more.

You missed me that day;
Came for something to do.
Seeing me made you sway
And from your eye, fell blue.

Shimmering with darkness
Forever stuck in shadows
Your soul reaches out
To be saved from itself

Yet none show such kindness
None understand this pain
All left you in deeper depths
Which seemed impossible to leave

Then things began to change
Happiness seemed to reign
For another was found
Another with black wounds

Attempting to help you
Bearing their soul
Holding you tight
Suffering by your side

The ground beneath me trembles
As I look upon my soul
For my world no longer resembles
What I knew as my goal.

I stood alone so very long
That I thought none could see
the sharp notes of my sad song
or broken chords of melody.

So deep in song and thought,
Never to glance all around.
I didn't know that what I sought
stood near me, without a sound.

As I pause for a rattling breath,
Your  song, it filled my ears.
Not one of shame and death,
Just a song to banish fears.

Rushing from my ears throughout,
that song caused me to stir.
Now knowing, without a doubt,
For you, my heartbeat is sure.

Always helpful and forgiving,
having a heart is your fame.
In this world full of maiming,
You never play that game.

Yet, for all these things to love,
You drown yourself in hate.
Thinking everyone is above;
You, yourself, just too late.

Sitting in darkness
Letting it swallow you
While warmness envelopes
And the numbness begins

Running through you
This emptiness so deep
That words hold nothing
But company keeps you sane

No noise is needed
Just the presence, so still
To remind you to continue
For another feels your pain

So alone this world
Never time for peace
Lest you sit and breathe
And let the stillness in.

You scare me to the bone
Leave me trembling
Wanting so much more

Send me shivers through the phone
While I fear you
Afraid of your darkened soul

As my heart is being resown
You come closer
Attempting to finish the task

Can I run and be all alone?
No, your pull too strong
I slink to your side, accepting the pain

Screams echo deep in the dark night
But shivering hearts freeze from fright

The time has come for words pronounced
Bitterness melts the frostbitten hate announced

Souls do bond when the winter quells
Shooting stars among the Gods fell

Humanity is losing touch.
Humanity is gone.
This world is cruel, oh so much,
I wish it'd be redrawn.

Today, my life in ruins,
It crashes over stones
From my dam, removed by sins
Taken on by me alone.

As the water quickly sweeps
Past all I ever gained,
Wiping all I won for keeps;
Leaving the land worn and stained.

All is lost and forgot,
Now laying in a pool of rubble;
Leaving that for which I fought.
Guessing this world to be trouble.

And yet, can it be?
The water slowing to a trot?
Is there someone here for me?
Or am I truly left to rot?

A soft warmth enveloping
as they whispered my name,
my heartbeat wasn't dropping,
nor does it stay the same.

As the flow is cut,
I find the perfect place
to be, from the world, shut.
And know nothing, but that face.

I hack for her eyes.
I chop for her soul.
I rip for her radiant beauty.
Hack, slash, dig; it's my duty.
All is for her

As I raise my weapon high,
I think of nothing, but her.
Slaying in her name is a cinch
Yet for myself, it's a pinch.
All is for her

Monsters, they scare her so.
I tremble in fear,
but she gets me through.
To her, I am always true.
**All is for her