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witchy woman Jul 2013
I haven't written in forever
Due to lack of motivation
I let my sickness get the best of me
And steal my inspiration


pathetic


I will tell you all something, that many do not know
For the last little while I was up and out
All over the city of T.O.

I crashed at a friends and sped right up
He gave me a shot to stay low
I don't remember what happened all week
But on Friday it was home to go

I spent today recovering
Sickness rocking me from within
My whole ******* body aches
From the core of my bones to my paper thin skin

For someone so young, merely the age of 18
It's weird to see the tracks on my arms, showing where I've been
I know my daddy must've saw
For he knows exactly what I've seen

Addiction *****
Don't ******* try to glamourize it
So yeah that was my week that just passed i feel like I look like **** but I'm gonna be good soon. I really tried to write last week but idk if any made it though the spotty ****** wifi
Jul 2013 · 543
Perspective
witchy woman Jul 2013
Baby maybe if your lucky
I'll let you **** me

Buy me a few drinks too?
Maybe I'll blow you

Pull a bill out of your pants
Baby I'll give you a dance

                    *
Baby maybe if your lucky
I'll do what I can because I'm hungry

Buy me a few drinks too?
It'll help me forget what I did with you

Pull a bill out of your pants
And maybe in this life I'll have a chance
Jul 2013 · 255
Just My Mind (10w per line)
witchy woman Jul 2013
I struggle with realizations that I could possibly be defective

It's never been enough for you. How can I accept?

I must deny it to myself. No I can't be

Not me, in order to succeed I must be flawless
Just came back from a psychiatric assessment and meeting with a social worker and it ******* *****.
Jul 2013 · 417
Teach Me
witchy woman Jul 2013
Pin me down
Hand on my jaw
Force me to behave

Using your skill
Strength, and passion
To tame this tiger out of her cage
witchy woman Jul 2013
i.
Lust for him
Envy for her
Shame for myself

           ii.
Longing for him (in another life I tell myself)
Nothing for her
Anger for myself

        iii.
Indifference for him
Is there a her?
Curiousity about myself (I wonder if he was here, what could he make my body do)
Hm. Not sure what to say about this
Jul 2013 · 293
I Hope I See
witchy woman Jul 2013
I lay my head down to rest
In hopes that one day
I will see  peace

I lay my head down to rest
And pray that one day
I will see joy

I lay my head down to rest
And think that one day
Perhaps I will see unity

I lay my head down to rest
And ponder that maybe
One day I will see *what you see
What do you see?
Jul 2013 · 557
Sky
witchy woman Jul 2013
Sky
Blackest midnight dominates before the dawn
Violet clouds dance before the storm
Indigo threatens with denser coverage
Royal Blue assures everything is fine, for now
Turquoise entices all to come out & play
Whereas the whitest blue whispers it is just awake
The blazing coral dances with passion and arousal
The magenta swirled with baby fine rose hairs reminds us that something so beautiful
                             Is
                                  Not
                        ­                   So
                                                  Simply
     ­                                                          Touched
Jul 2013 · 339
Empty Promise
witchy woman Jul 2013
I promised myself
That I
Would stand
On my own two feet

Without the need
Of a crutch
Or a dependence
On which I could lean

How very interesting that
The one promise, I failed to keep
The easiest one by far
Was the promise I made to me
witchy woman Jun 2013
I just wanted to thank all of you wonderful beautiful people
All of my lovely followers
And those who have given your amazing opinions, compliments, and constructive critisim on my work
I thank you from the bottom of my heart
I cherish all of you
For you have no idea how much your support means
Much love
- Natasha
witchy woman Jun 2013
I need someone awake at every little hour
To give me some hope when the day surrenders to its nightly power
I sleep only to be woke by sickness
I just need someone to take the edge off
Jun 2013 · 349
Oh me
witchy woman Jun 2013
So typically
I find myself
The cause
Of my own misfortune
Misguidance
And misery
Jun 2013 · 546
The City: Serene.
witchy woman Jun 2013
Wondrous, beautiful, shining white lights
Speckled numerously before my balcony
I close my eyes and breathe in the saccharine air
Oh, I revel in thy beauty

The city so sleek
So embodied with life and love
My home, my divine metropolis
Reflected, with dotted light, most evenly in the sky above

I could never imagine somewhere as precious as her
With so many things, I have and yet to see
I open my eyes, letting the sapphire sky
Bathe me in serenity
witchy woman Jun 2013
Inject me straight
Fine I'm addicted
Just let me have a taste

Burning white powder
Calling my name
At every single party
Behind every football game

You were my crutch for so long
My support when I was down
You made me feel ecstatic
Yet held me close to the ground

Your power over me
Is something that laughs and sneers in my face
And I'll dip in & out
Of your igneous taste
Jun 2013 · 1.0k
Tiger
witchy woman Jun 2013
I honestly need to learn how to control my temper
My ******* mouth and my words tainted with anger
A fast mouth, and sharp tongue
And I realize our relationship
Sometimes
Is like a tiger ******* a rabbit
Prepare for the claws baby
Jun 2013 · 455
We Don't Want To See
witchy woman Jun 2013
My head is spinning
The steady velvet stream dripping
We all succumb to blindness

It is a constant state of ever-being
As living, breathing creatures
In one way or another, we are blind

Blind about the self inflicted damage
Or the fraughtful life of a loved one
We shut our eyes, and allow ourselves to be blind

To the good, the bad, the inevidable especially
Insist that we're living our lives to the absolute fullest
Unbeknownst and blindly
Jun 2013 · 251
I'm lonely someone love me
witchy woman Jun 2013
This isnt a poem.. I'm just mentioning
Jun 2013 · 300
I Rest A l o n e
witchy woman Jun 2013
He fills my eyes to the brim
My stomach knotted with dread
Night after night
Alone in my bed
Jun 2013 · 752
Just Me Again
witchy woman Jun 2013
I think I've found your secret
The key to my locked up pleasure
The way to make my body writhe
To make that pulsing, riveting, shock; skyrocket from inside

Embodiment of ecstasy
Tip my head back, and close my eyes
Allow every sound that finds its way to my mouth
To slip out like a rolling tide

To ease my hands down in a way
That both tortures and teases me
But the one thing that is truly inspiring
Is simply the way he *watches me
Jun 2013 · 776
In 8 Hours
witchy woman Jun 2013
Pastel coloured flutterbyes, almost plush yet with elegant movement
Honey & camomile warm, summer sweet air
Indigo and plums in the midnight sky
Fresh peach and raspberry in the morning
The smell of my love making me coffee
Let me soak up all there is to be greatful for
*and fall asleep in satin sheets
Jun 2013 · 438
Engraved
witchy woman Jun 2013
I have always been taught by those most dear
That I had something always to be feared
I was a hazard, a danger to myself
A burden, a nusience to everyone else

Perhaps this is why I can't seem to find
A reason to go on with my oh-so-blue life
For it is always what I have believed, I am quite well trained
I do wish to break free one day, but its hard when my guidelines are engraved
Jun 2013 · 520
Just Me
witchy woman Jun 2013
You know how much I love it when you talk to me
Do you think you could give me some inspiration when you know
I'm all alone..
And it's just me?

Tell me what you do that makes your lady
Feel like a *****
In the best way, I promise
She's always wanting more

Let me try
And recreate
What you always seem to do to me
Talent can be built with enough practice

But first I'll watch your lead
There will hopefully be more to this when the moment strikes
Jun 2013 · 506
Down III
witchy woman Jun 2013
Oh baby,
How your
Tongue
Lips
Whisper
Kiss
Light me on fire
Jun 2013 · 386
Just About Eating
witchy woman Jun 2013
I have a budding disorder
Funny to think
That the thing that once comforted me
Now makes my heart sink
Head spin
And if I should consume
A wave of nausea
And I will my empty myself through and through
This is just something I've been feeling recently, I can't eat anything without wanting to *****, it's quite a shame because I used to love food. Now I'm repulsed by it.
Jun 2013 · 440
Down II
witchy woman Jun 2013
Looking up at me
It's more than I can handle
Show me what its like
To be tasted by an angel
Jun 2013 · 210
Untitled
witchy woman Jun 2013
I don't know how I got here

But I'm really ******* high

Gave me somethin' in a needle

Left my mouth all dry

But its all good

And I'm okay

I'll make it by

*just another day
Jun 2013 · 408
Nothing.
witchy woman Jun 2013
I can't describe my dislike
I loath you
I despise you
I wish all but unhappiness upon you
I hope you realize all you've done and wallow in self pity
Or have someone prove you wrong
I know how much you hate that
I hope someone beats the absolute **** out of you
To show that your not the strongest in the world
Or you OD on all those drugs you take so you realize your not invincible
I'm repelled
Disgusted
Appalled
So much by your presence
That I nothing you.
Jun 2013 · 957
My love
witchy woman Jun 2013
I come not
From a broken home
From a broken life
Or broken dreams
I come from a broken mind, not so easy to see
From the first draw of blood I made, I knew I wasn't the same
It was love at first sight, my secret beautiful blade
It was perfect.
We spent time together
She was there for me
Like no one was before
She gave me enough pain, utmost pleasure
Always wanting more
Until one day, someone saw
My lovely secret out
They took her away, my wonderful blade
They didn't understand this love affair that had come about
They told me she was precarious
Full of diseases and grime
This scared me enough, so that I haven't returned
To flirt with my old obsession
But from time to time
When I consider deeply
I never learned my lesson
Jun 2013 · 768
Just breathe
witchy woman Jun 2013
Baby breathe, I begging you baby just breathe
I'm trying I'm already dying without you please
I can't stand this life without you I can't live with all the pain
I can't walk around and pretend like your passing hasn't left me insane
I see my life ahead of me and without you it isn't good
Your the one who kept me on track when no one else ever could
That's why I'm begging you, fallen helplessly on my knees
Baby if you could please just breathe.
Jun 2013 · 1.8k
Agony
witchy woman Jun 2013
Pain rocks my body
A dry unrelenting feeling
Make it stop
The hopelessness
In this agony
I dread
Jun 2013 · 577
Asylum with You
witchy woman Jun 2013
Trapped in a mind no longer myself
White walls, white sheets, white eyes, white hell
My friend over there is special, only I can see him
Red stains his clothes and all of his skin
His wide eyes are black, but they were once blue
Trust me, he used to live in this room with me too
All he does is sit there not making much noise
Sometimes I'm his *****, but mostly
He's my toy.
His teeth are missing, knocked out of his face
Dragged, through the hallways and killed without a trace
Well at least to me, it seemed he was gone for good
Till white turned red wherever I stood.
A part of me screamed as another one laughed
A sharp pain in my side, and my world turned black.
My head educes snide dreams with voices drifting sideways
Voices crossing each other like overpass highways
"What have you done?!" one of them shrills
For I have sufficed my inexplicable urge to ****
Different words, different voices leave me alone and reeling
Black walls, black *****, blackened faces, black ceiling
Room with a low roof, no bed, no feeling
Just space and empty
Unfurling to consume me
Until blinding light surrounds a dark figure
Long and Lanky
An outstretched arm
With something held in its bounty
I sprint towards it
Is it too good to be true?
Until a
Gunshot
Gasp
And drip
Then my life ended with you.
Jun 2013 · 329
Baby Burns
witchy woman Jun 2013
The child creeps closer and closer
To the fire
Closer and closer
I watch and await
I know what's next
But yet I do not try to stop
Halt
Or warn her
For I will smile as she **burns
Jun 2013 · 463
Down
witchy woman Jun 2013
The very presence of your skin, sets mine ablaze
Kiss me down, down, down
And hold my gaze
Jun 2013 · 249
Down
witchy woman Jun 2013
The very presence of your skin, sets mine ablaze
Kiss me down, down, down
And hold my gaze
Jun 2013 · 1.2k
I wake up alone
witchy woman Jun 2013
He sweeps my tears up with his hands
My breath caught
Stomach knots
Heavy sighs
and all of your acoustic lullabies
But I wake up alone
Jun 2013 · 453
Hostility
witchy woman Jun 2013
It's funny to think
That despite how I feel
I hold my heart to a wall
And give you hostility
Jun 2013 · 377
Hostility
witchy woman Jun 2013
It's funny to think
That despite how I feel
I hold my heart to a wall
And give you hostility
Jun 2013 · 410
Hostility
witchy woman Jun 2013
It's funny to think
That despite how I feel
I hold my heart to a wall
And give you hostility
Jun 2013 · 454
Hostility
witchy woman Jun 2013
It's funny to think
That despite how I feel
I hold my heart to a wall
And give you hostility

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