I must admit, it hurts a lot to be left by the person you loved the most when everyone else left too. In such a fragile state, I feel like I'm obsessing about everything between us because you were the last person to leave me.

I'll never understand truly why, why you couldn't fight for me when I needed it the most, when my life was hanging by a thread, when I had no one else to confide in. It will always hurt me, as it happens so much, but our conversations, relationship and old friendship were truly the highlight of my days.. You were my favorite person to talk to.

Maybe eventually it will stop hurting. But even if not, even if you are better off without me, I hope you can be happy and find what you're looking for. Of course, it hurts that I'm not going to be a part of that. But I was only making it harder, wasn't I? I'm sorry for that. I really wanted you to be that support system for me, like I was for you, but I guess it was too difficult, my burdens are too heavy. So I hope it is easier now, I don't blame you, I don't hate you. You did what was best for yourself and that's not selfish, it's putting your well being first. Even though it hurts I can never wish you any harm. Please be ok.

but i don't think i'm yours. and that's okay.

you love me, that's for sure. but not in the way i hope. not in the way i dream.

so i'll be here. watching you love someone else. watching you be with someone else.

i can live with that, though. as long as you keep on smiling.

you will always have my heart.

I guess soulmates aren’t always meant to be in your life forever

they come in and tear your world apart

forcing you to change into the person you’re meant to be

then they sometimes they leave.

Why am I still clinging to you? Even after you’ve chosen everything but me. Why do I crave you regardless of the pain it comes with? Why can’t I give up on you? You give me no reason to hope you’ll continue to choose me, yet I eagerly wait on you. I’ve got every reason to leave or make you, and I can’t. Why am I so pathetic? Why can’t I tell you no? Why do you get to have me!? And I can never have all of you. I love you so much it hurts, and hate you so much it makes me insane. When I think about you I feel physically sick because of my emotions towards you, yet I think about you constantly. I’ll never be over you. *******, I love you.

I didn’t fall in love with you because I was lonely,
Or because I was searching for something to fill a void.
I didn’t fall in love with you because I needed saving,
Or because I thought I couldn’t be happy without you.
No, I fell in love with you because you opened my eyes to a world I hadn’t known.
You became a window, and through that window, I saw colors I had never imagined,
You brought me a love that felt like sunlight after a long winter.
I fell in love with you simply because you were
Because you appeared when the universe decided the time was right,
And in that moment, you seized my attention like a melody I never wanted to stop hearing.
It’s as if my heart knew you would be the one to teach it to beat in new rhythms,
To show me feelings I never thought were possible,
And open my soul to warmth I had never known.

I fell in love with you because it felt like coming home.
It was effortless, like the way the moon tugs at the tide,
Or how a bird knows the way back to its nest, even from miles away.
In your presence, I want to be better,
In your absence, I find myself searching for ways to grow.
In your words, I hear truths I never dared to speak aloud,
In your silence, I find the ache in your voice, like a song left unsung in the quiet

I fell in love with you for the simplest, most profound reason
Because with you, everything just fits.
It feels right, in a way I can’t fully explain,
But I know with every beat of my heart, it’s exactly how I’m meant to feel.

How do I make you understand, that I love you. I'm so good at pretending, and I'm so tired of wearing the mask, I just wish one day I would have the courage to break the protocols and be a little bit out of character, even if that means it's not appropriate. But then again, who is it to say what is appropriate, what dismays the rules of the world might be the truth in your heart.

I love you, it hurts me to a depth to think about the moments we briefly shared together, to think about the moment when you said you loved me, to revisit the moment we kissed, each time, I wish it could last forever.

I'm so tired of living a character of everybody's expectations, whereas you see the real me, the me behind my mask, without an effort. It's like you look into my eyes and you see the whole me.

I wish I could tell you the whole story, how I feel sad every single day afterwards but still pretend to be the happy person and put on a show just so that no one noticed that you had such an impact on me. I wish I could tell you I almost remember every single little moment we shared, good or bad. I wish I could tell you that you were in my last thought when I nearly died, that's how much I love you.

I see you in everything.

Today I saw something that reminded me of you, it was so specific. I wanted to buy it and give it you, but I can’t.

My heart is breaking, I miss you so much. I thought that by blocking you I would be able to move forward more easily. I thought I would be able to heal my heart and find clarity.

Instead, I find you in the open spaces, I hear you in the silence.

I’m aching. You probably think I hate you, but I don’t. I miss you so much. I don’t know what to do

I can recognize these words anywhere as if they're my own. I miss you, so much. It hits me randomly and took my breath away. And in those moments, I just want to abandon everything and go to you, consequences be ******.

You've loved me when I couldn't face myself. I loved you, still love you, and will love you even when you don't like yourself. I think I've loved you forever, the knot in my stomach told me so.

I have to believe you feel the same for me. Were we ever anything but each other's reflection? I know we're more than that, but lately this thought plagued my mind.

I've been moving through the motions missing parts of me. It's like, I'm smiling and living but it doesn't feel right-- incomplete. And I know where those missing parts lay.

I don't want to lose myself for you nor do I want that for you. That's not love. But I do want to jump into the deep end and swim to shore with you.

You are worth it, so take my hand. Even if you're scared, just take my hand anyway. I love you, I love us, I miss us. So look at me, hold my gaze and don't walk away. I haven't left, just learning and healing. I want to come home. So let me, let us go home.