Out of touch with reality
How to snap back?
I don't know how you see
Everything is haunting me
Not only the past but what lies ahead of me
It is not bright it is dark it is sticky

even if there were a million reasons to stay you would most likely leave
It isn't anything bad you're just like me
But if some other girl would ask you stay you'd do it because home is so far away
It is easier to have this temporary comfort it fits me better than my favorite t shirt

I still have to recover
I still have to wait
I still have to witness you go through that pain
I can easily block you but the pictures keep popping up
I never knew I followed so many people who are hitting that rock
You brought so much hurt and it hurts to blame you but it's the reality no one can change you and if the woman who is meant to be with you was standing there in front of your face, you'd probably turn her down all because of her race and you'd choose the next one because she seems like she is more fun she has no ID no sense of well being she doesn't give a **** about anything but you still care you want to be with her then go
go if you dare

I hardly ever make any sense but that is because I am not trying to
I don't want to be the reason that she has been lied to
I won't be a second choice
I won't be a choice at all
I am not meat or an outfit at the mall
I will not fit you seasonally
I won't stay just because you want to be with me
You aren't needing me
It makes no sense to keep me sticking around if all you are doing is dicking around with ******* and hoes who have nothing

you couldn't walk with me but I can see that you walk with her
I hope that she can teach you something I hope that you can learn
How to treat a woman and how not to burn
the people who loved you before
the people who have given more
than what they give themselves and what they give their families
I hope she gives you the strength to do better you'd think
that you would know by now but it is over
there are times where i think you are changed but it is over

You shame me in public
You think it's funny
It's not funny
You remind me of a child reaching for the candy on the top shelf
You'll never reach it so you call out for help
And this makes me angry
Because if I don't help you, you shame me
All I can ever think about is all the times that you have played me
You can't keep a woman for ****
You can't hold down ****
You leave her the responsibilities even if she's going through it
I feel sorry for the next woman you end up with

I won't ever let you treat me this was again
I can never even claim you as a friend
Ever
You have made a mistake and I told you this isn't easy to fake
Everything that you do makes me think
Maybe I am not the crazy one
Maybe you drove me crazy for fun
It's something you think about on a daily
Something you do to shame me