delilah

delilah Feb 2022

2/2/22

i’ve gone and designed myself into a commodity
made myself perfectly consumable
and i’ll let you consume every bit of me

i’ve realized that i’m basically dressing up the shell of a person
make myself into who people want to see
who people want to feel
want to love
and i know what i have isn’t love
i know it’s just the lies boys think i need to open my legs
but i’m okay with that
to feel like someone’s world for fleeting moments

delilah Jan 2022

01/10/22

time and time again
i catch myself attracted to
good for nothing potheads
small time criminals
boys with daddy issues
(sometimes even mommy issues)
boys that don’t want to be better while i’m around
boys that want to dig themselves deeper
boys that’ll be better for a girl that matters
and i’m just not that girl

delilah Dec 2021

12/18/21

you were never nice were you?
i was just easy

delilah Dec 2021

12/17/21

you only stopped to consider how drunk i may have been
when it came to getting me out of your bed
not when it came to getting me in it

*****

delilah Dec 2021

12/08/21

it physically pains me to think that i have existed beyond the present
like i'm walking through life trailed by fragments of me
like there's pieces of me still living for others
pieces i don't remember losing
living without me

it scares me to think that maybe i am less and less myself everyday
but maybe it's better that parts of me get to live for others
better than those pieces being simply gone
forever

delilah Jun 2021

how unfortunate

i look so much like my father when my mother is upset with me
it's amazing how she can't see herself in me when she's mad
my teary eyes are his
my sour face is his
my stance is his
i am his daughter when's she's angry

delilah Jun 2021

choo choo

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sometimes it feels like i can't catch a train in my own thoughts
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