Tonight
I want to weep
To shake the walls
Maybe wake the dead
As I wail
The pain bubbles
To the surface
I’ll tremble
With release
And beg forgiveness
For uncommitted sins
Missing your shadow
And what
We might have been

I’m lonely
The silence
Is palpable

I’m sad
The melancholy
Is heartbreaking

I’m lost
The uncertainty
Is frightening

I’m indifferent
The numbness
Is life saving.

It sits on my chest
Like an anvil
Weighing me down
Causing me pain

It feeds on my soul
Like a parasite
Eating away slowly
Leaving me empty

It steals my joy
Like a thief in the night
Robbing my being
****** me bare

It leaves me lonely
Like a closing door
Sealing my fate
Breaking my heart.

Stupid girl
No one cares
Your troubles
Are your own

Stupid girl
No one knows
Your alone
all by yourself

Stupid girl
No ones coming
Your strength
Is all you have

You ripped
My heart
From my body

You betrayed
My trust
From my being

You exposed
My insecurities
From my soul

You loved
My self
From your side

You never
My forever
From my heart

This story
Is not just mine
To tell
It’s a kaleidoscope
Of colors
And words
That not even
Time
Could write

You left
In an array
Of words
That penetrated
My skin
Like bullets
Leaving wounds
In my soul