Your words
Were unexpected
Thinking of me?

My guard
Was deployed
Thinking of me?

Your prose
So casual
Thinking of me?

My breath
On hold
Thinking of me?

Your play
Not working
Thinking of me?

My resistance
On point
Don’t think of me.

I’m hesitant
Your hands in my hair
Your breath teasing my ear

I’m scared
Your words in my head
Your scent lingers on my skin

I’m doubtful
Your eyes piercing mine
Your embrace holds me tight

I’m surrendering
Your play wins me over
Your presence wrecks me

He didn’t see
The scars
As he held
Me close

He didn’t notice
The tears
As he pulled
Me tight

He didn’t know
The thoughts
As he decided
Me his

He didn’t realize
The chasm
As he declared
Me the one.

Tonight
There will be
Too much wine
As I wonder
How I became
This girl

Tonight
There will be
Too many tears
As I reflect
How this happened
To me

Tonight
There will be
Too much pain
As I cry
Over this sadness
I feel

Tonight
There will be release
Too much emotion
As I cut
And release the pain
To set me free

I post a few pics
The ones
Where I’m pretty

You message
Hopeful
For reply

We banter
Back and forth
Nothing serious

Then we text
Words get deep
You wanna meet

I hesitate
I’m scared
A broken girl

You persist
I give in
Beyond nervous

I’ll be hopeful
The pieces
Can hold it together

I hate this girl
I’ve become
Needy and desperate
For some man
To say she’s pretty

I hate this truth
I’ve searched
Lonely and longing
For a reply
To say I’m good enough

I hate this life
I’ve lived
Alone and waiting
For reason
To say it will be ok

I’m that girl
Battered
And broken
But still standing

I’m that girl
Lost
And abandoned
But still hoping

I’m that girl
Shredded
And struggling
But still trying

I’m that girl
Left
And all alone
But still hopefull

I’m that girl
stubborn
And strong
And still thriving