He texts
I brace myself
I won’t respond
I know better

He uses words
I ve heard before
I get this game
I’m a seasoned pro

He haunts me
I love him still
I feel the feels
I’ll be strong

I am alone
For the first time
In along time
There’s no one but me

I am scared
For thoughts run rampant
In this space
There’s no one but me

I am weak
For surrender brings peace
In this moment
There’s no one but me

I am searching
For shards of hope
In this life
There’s no one but me

I am ok
For strength unknown
Inside my being
There’s no one but me

It will be a day

   Of biting my lip
      Holding my breath
         Clearing my head
            Blocking the thoughts
               Denying the feelings

                               To stop the tears.

There aren’t words
Or phrases  
To describe
What the
Bloodletting
Releases

There aren’t people
Or persons
To eleaveate
What the
Needle
Eases

There are no programs
Or self helps
To lighten
What the  
Cut
Resolves

There is nothing
Or hope
To save
What the
Mark
Leaves behind

Whose the fool
The one who follows
Or the one who runs?

Whose mislead
The one who accepts
Or the one who bucks?

Whose scared
The one who knows
Or the one who hopes?

Whose finished
The one who believes
Or the one who accepts?

I’m done
I’ve nothing
Left to give

I’m out
I’m empty
Out of space

I’m finished
I’m complete
I’m numb

No one
Will put me on a pedestal
And buy me a tiara

No one
Will watch the eclipse
And tell me that they’re falling

No one
Will love me for me
And  make  me think I’m enough

No one
Will make me believe
That the past is the past

No one
Will convince me
That I’m what they’ve been waiting for

No one
Will make me trust
That their words are the truth

No one
Will gain my trust
And make me believe

No one
Will stop out of the blue
And leave me alone