No one will
Find me
Beneath
The destruction
Of my life
There’s no light
To guide them
To the crevice
That was once
A beating heart
No micro chip
No google map
To the ruins
I’ve become
Just a space
Lost in time
Wondering
What became
Of  her
Beating heart

Alone
In bed
The thoughts
Roam
From good
To bad
Should I
Or no
I just need
To let go
The right hand
Ready
Good to go
She knows
The spots
No need
To show
Dead
To center
She’s got me
Oh!

I’ll dance in the rain
For a chance at forgiveness
To let it wash away
All my wrongs

I’ll kneel at the cross
In hopes of redemption
To cleanse my soul
Of all my sons

I’ll face the fire
To please whoever
To free my mind
Of all these thoughts

I’ll shed my blood
For saving grace
To make right
All the wrong I’ve done

If you knew
Would it change
Your mind
Would you think
Less of me

If I told
The truth
Came clean and honest
Would you still
Hold me so high

If I showed
The scars
And told my stories
Would you smile
At me after

If you knew
He will always
Have my heat
Would you love
The rest of me

The wasted tears
The mascara stains
The ruined pillowcases
Of unknown thread count

The empty bottle
The used tissues
The endless nights
Of wasted emotion

The stifled cries
The deliberate cuts
The pleas to God
Of quiet desperation

The bitter realization
The hope relinquished
The final surrender
Of a broken heart

Tonight
The needle
Across
My skin
Deep enough
To hurt
But not leave
A scar
Your name
Lingered
On my lips
As the edge
Tore thru
My flesh
Tomorrow
It will
Be better
Until
I remember
You don’t
Love me
Anymore

We are in a place
That can’t be named
For our past
Might define us

We were lovers
From the start
Needy souls
Who wanted to feel

We became friends
Who walked
Hand in hand
Thru the rocks

We went our ways
Suffered silently
With understanding
That life moves on

Now we are
In a time
That’s undefined
But feels so right