My mistakes are what drives me
They rip at my chest and haunt my dreams
Sleepless nights and endless days
Keep me awake and deny me of my dreams

All I've wanted is to just be free
Everything is not what it seems
When will I ever find my way
I just want to chase my dreams...again

Pay checks and movie stubs
amongst reciepts and wrappers
buried beneath fields of dust bunnies
and clouds of unused smoke
is that all there is?
Graded approvals and first take judgements
within statement making garments
dependant upon conditions and factors
and one can't forget limits
is that all there is?
Genuinely fake smiles and unpiercing sharp eyes
around the time of no boundaries
next to missed alarm clock rings
and ever so important transit missions
is that all there is?
Talk back and rumor mills
spin webs of classes missing caste systems
yet gaining entry into future endeavours
so clever these days of ours
is that all there is?
Awkward congregations and a sense of forced happiness
paired with seemingly healthy attractions
combine to create an enviroment in which only the parasites can dwell
is that all there is?

flow with me, feel. the breeze between thighs.
row the boat. amongst crashing tides and, waves
beautiful waves of flesh. warm. not opened.
accepting? punctuation not deserving.
worth all the work. however; not. the. serving.

chattering teeth
give away this awful cowardice
honesty at best, couldn't honor promises.
how is it I seem to care so much,
yet know you oh so little?
a riddle tickling each one of my ribs,
to the cold shouldered,
I'm just a shiver.

Sink your teeth
deep into my innocence,
on your plump lips
does it taste devine?
Just like this heart of mine?

Drink up the grease
of guilt and lies
I dare you, I dare you!
It'll mix with yours
just fine.

**** my wasted kisses
from the tip of my tongue,
they always lingered there,
Scrape them off with a razor
put them in a jar.

But leave my heart,
leave it dead and black
inside me.

your love is a lie, a lie
your love is a beautiful lie
you smile with your eyes, your eyes
your smile brings light to our eyes

nothing but a promise whispered
made in the night, forgotten by morning
is my grief to you so sweet, my dear
that you left me quietly to weep ?

your love was my light, my light
your love filled my very soul
your heart is guided by your eyes, your eyes

why then, do your wanderings surprise ?


your love was my light, my light
your love filled my very soul

But now the hour grows late, my dear,
and I can not wait for you more.