flirting with death telling her i'm ready
she's caressing my temple my lips and my chest
with a blue steel barrel goosebumps and longing
a short sharp breath and eyes closed tight
i ease and ease and ease the trigger in
click
can't die yet, rent's due tomorrow

it's glorious outside and
I am in a foul ******* mood
I kicked your dog
I took your kid's candy
I spit in your fries
the sun is shining and
my thoughts are blacker than sin
animal abuse commercials were
made because of me
the ones about the orphans too
the birds are singing and
the sound makes me want
to shove their stupid *******
songs down their stupid *******
throats
the world is laughing 'round me
and all I want to do is beat
it till it screams and shakes and cries
today is not a good day

her smooth violet lips
mouthing honestly for peace.
sweet eyes thunder war

hellbent livid heart
touches ugly her body
blows hard leaves shiver

it's cool summer nights like these
where I roll down the windows
to watch the world pass while
our song plays quiet through the speakers
and, just for a second, with eyes half closed
I can feel your hand in mine
sweet memory of touch
before I refocus and find a car that's empty
and space between my fingers
an ache in my chest and a cold right shoulder

anger uncontrollable wildly swings to and fro
a weathervane shifting it's glaring arrow
from me to you to me to you to me to god
this tempest boiling over from my half full mindset
spills forth from my body a black wicked liquid
its leaks from my pores and pours from my eyes
spews from my mouth and is felt in the
tremors of my hands
incensed irate rabid sick and shaking
my mind like a dog should be put down out back
an execution style burial one bullet to my head
just watch for the blood spatter
don't want to infect anyone else