a second before a brush with that buzzing needle
and the world stands still for that one perfect moment
my heart beats faster, pupils dilate
and a heady sigh escapes my lips
as ink and blood mingle and mix
to form new shapes brought alive
awash in red and black
chemical release as endorphins flow my mind goes blank not a thought for a penny nor a care for the world
and my soul rests easy with one more
story written out on my skin

i just doesn't feel the same dear
i hope you take no offense
i have come to realize that life moves on
and so should we
hell i'm only human
isn't that the tragedy of it all
so i bear you no ill will my once love
no matter the hell you put me through
i somehow still loved you
but it seems our day has gone past
and it's time we moved on and stop
grasping at memories with as much
success as holding air in hand
i can't keep you alive in my heart
anymore than i could keep you
in my life and i'm at peace with that
so don't drag it out just find someone else
and put your hand in his
and find a future without me dear
because it seems to me that
no matter what we try our fingers just won't
intertwine

apathetic heartbeat take a hold of my senses and sink me into a state of being uncomfortably numb on the eve of a night soon forgotten
with a pretentious comment and a pretty air of arrogance girlie girl the world is going to take you down a step or three
romantic notions are dead darling but its your skin not mine, I learned that lesson one too many years ago
and have never felt more lost
but take your attitude to the grave for all I cared, you'll know you're there by the trail of dead know-it-all dreamers that life will never spare
I've learned my lesson
and I can't seem to care
if you choke on yours

once upon a time I wished for happy places and better things
now I only want your arms and this feeling of pain to leave my veins
but I'm afraid of the sky that's increasingly going grey
so I wait with open arms in the pouring rain and feel the whisper of your ghost passing through my brain
tattered and torn lay here bleeding and I hear you leaving me an empty shell an unanswered call
what happened my love for you to take the best time of my life and give it to the unforgiving jackals grasping for your hand and any sense of memory

i refuse to sleep because
losing my mind
is better than seeing him in
my dreams
and the way you whisper
his name
will forever haunt me
lie to my face
and **** me slowly