I honestly feel empty,
It was like life had a plan for me
But now it’s all falling apart
Just like bricks falling from an old building.

The process goes slow yet too fast,
I’m trying to make it stop
But can you even stop a building from falling apart?

You can try holding it all together,
Hold it with ropes,
Put the fallen bricks back,
But in the long term they’ll just fall again.
It’s just absolutly useless.

The only possible thing that would solve your problem
Would be making it equal to the ground,
Starting all over again,
Right from the point you started all those many years ago.

But that takes time,
Time you don’t have,
Money you can’t spend,

The empty feeling will stay,
Yet I rather have it that way.

Scars,
Sometimes they are all what I see,
Those days make me hate myself.
Its a sea,
A sea of thoughts
they fly through my head,
I can't stop them,
they just keep going and going.

then it just all stops,
Like the sea went silent.
Like the sea doesn't want to do anything anymore,
its tired,
Yet it cant sleep,
It just starts thinking again..

Life ain't always easy,
You can tell that by the scars on my body,
They all tell a different story that doesn't want to be told.
It's a way of crying for help,
But at the same time not wanting it,
It's a trap,
A trap that makes you think everything is gonna be okay,
When yet I still sit here,
just me and my scars.

I gave u a book,
You could write anything in it,
It was all yours,
Yet you decided to destroy it,
Throw it around like garbage,
Instead of love you choose harm,
But I guess that's just how you are,
Aren't you?

I'm frustrated,
Not at you,
But at life,
Its not going how i want it to be
I wanna explore,
be free,
But life expects different things from me.

I'm watching you,
Watching you from my own seat,
I dont need to come nearby,
I can see you just as fine,
I like looking at you,
But i'm rather shy,
So ill sit in my seat,
Watching you live life,
On just the right beat.

As soon as I rise,
I'll rise like a goddess,
A goddess with flame as strong as one has never seen,

Until then,
I'll be here,
Sitting in my seat,
Dreaming of the way I want to be.