I dont know,
I dont know anything,
I dont know things about my future,
or if ill even get there,
I dont know how nor when my life will end,
I dont know if im here for a reason,
I dont know why I cant concentrate,
I just dont know and thats okay.

I had one shot,
one shot to freedom,
to being able to be myself again
But you saw my shot
and then took it,
without a pardon nor thinking,
It was gone,
years of trying...gone
off to the deep end
all because you were too selfish
to just let me get help
and too stubborn to give it back.

My breath becomes heavier, becomes louder,
yet I can't breath,
my moves become slower,
and slower...until I stop,
I can't move,i'm stuck.
Thought after thought goes through my head
and all of a sudden everything goes black,
it's peaceful and quiet, I can breath again,
until I wake up and just need to start it all over again...