You ended things with him
I told her it was over
Me and you got together
Oh, how happy we were
A few months later i went to visit my kids
This is where **** starts to go amiss
A halloween party with her and her family
I made a mistake and let her get in bed with me
I came back to you and our home
You felt something off and went through my phone
Your suspicions were right, your most terrible fear
Me and you hadn’t even been together a year
You were moving in with me that day and you angrily packed
You kept yelling at me, i made a mistake, i didn’t know how to act
Nine months later came a beautiful daughter
I don’t know why you stayed with me, why you even bothered
You said you couldnt be without me, the love was too deep
I told you the same and my heart was yours to keep

May 6, 2013 when it really began
The thing about it was it put us both in a jam
You had a boyfriend, i had a wife
We said that after deployment wed get on with our lives
But in those two months the reality changed
Our love grew so quick and put my heart in some chains
On the plane ride home we said it would come to an end
We held hands and said wed remain friends
We tried to move on go back to our others
But it was too tough our hearts belonged to another

The next morning we both showed up to work
I looked over at you, and gave you a smirk
Yes you know the smirk, the half smile
The one you’ve known for a long while
The one that means either bad or good
No matter what you could always tell the mood
We worked together all day
Then finally one of us worked up the courage to say
“I don’t regret what happened that night
But i didn’t want to lose a friend didn’t want to start a fight”
“I was afraid that YOU were having second thoughts
Just thinking about it had my stomach in knots”
We talked and we talked and figured out how we felt
Wed known each other for a short time but you made my heart melt

One long kiss while pulling money out
We were both drunk but i had no doubt
That you liked me,
and i liked you
Until the next morning,
when you flew,
Out of my room when you thought i was sleeping
But i was awake, i was just peeking
When i woke up i would look out of my window
Because i knew at some point you would show
You finally did and i went downstairs
I wanted to mention that night but i was so scared
Maybe you regretted all that had happened
I didnt at all, our first night of passion
As the day went on we hung out some more
Neither one of us knew what was in store
We went out to dinner, i remember it was sushi
When we got back i wanted you to come upstairs with me
But even though we both wanted it bad
Neither one of us mentioned it and we both went to bed sad

Everyday i notice you take more of your stuff
I know i told you to move out, it doesnt make it less rough
I just couldnt bear to see you anymore
Everynight after work come through that door
Id be in OUR bed sleeping with the kids
Youd tap me on the shoulder id open my eyelids
Youd say you were home
Id look around and our daughter was gone
Night after night hoping youd say cuddle with me
But you wouldn’t so id just get up and leave
Go to the kids room sleep by myself
All these thoughts in my head I’m in my own personal hell

A sunflower in a field of weeds
No one attending to your needs
A sunflower growing big and tall
But all i ever did was make you feel small
A sunflower reaching for the sun
But i picked you out the field before the growing was done
A sunflower i picked as my companion
But i see now it was more of an abduction
The sunflower finally wild and free
And i know in my heart that youll find a better bee

You ask me why i make myself sad by looking at pictures
Because they’re all i have left and these feelings they stir
You don’t want to talk about us you say don’t even bother
Again, the pictures are all i have left of how happy we once were
I wake up and see a picture of us posted up on our mirror
You me and the kids the future seemed so much brighter