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Betuel Apr 2018

Amanda

Frosty blue eyes
Brighter than the sky
A smile so wide
It makes me feel all right
Freckles on her face
With my fingers id trace
Tatted up like a biker
Maybe thats why i liked her
Octopus on her shoulder
I just wish i could hold her
Also a mermaid, a little ugly she said
I thought it was beautiful it was all in her head
Wooden ship on the other
Mermaid daughter and mother
A light house and a beetle
Shes not afraid of the needle
Jellyfish on her thigh
Mistakes i wish i could rectify
Queen of Hearts on her ring finger
The whole time i was a class 5 clinger
Dont let your dreams be dreams
Tattooed on her chest
Thats why ill let her go
But i wish her the best

Poem about her tattoos

#tattoos

Betuel Apr 2018

Cats PJs

The cats pajamas
Had nothing on us
We were carrots and peas
Better than the bees knees
Bonnie and Clyde
Felt like going down a slide
The passion burned
And then one day it turned
The distance was small
But our love came to a stall
I hurt you so bad
And made both of us sad

Betuel Apr 2018

Letter to my Wife

To my beautiful wife
I gave you my life
You gave me your heart
I tore us apart
I love you so much
But we just lost touch
For me it still hurts
Hopefully it wont get much worse
I wish you would stay
It might get better one day
But i know that its lost
But wow, What a cost
I dont hate you
How could i hate you?
I took you for granted
Wanted your feet firmly planted
But you belong free
Someplace where theres trees
Its hard to let go
Because you had my soul
You ripped out my heart
But at least you wont stomp on it
I cant beg you to stay
Itll just push you away
I dont want to let go
But i need to let go
You need to be on your own
In a few years well have grown
In my heart i hope for the better
Be true to yourself and NEVER just settle

Betuel Apr 2018

Unsinkable?

The ship that was us was never supposed to sink
It just hurts so much i cant even think
We were always supposed to stay afloat
The titanic was unsinkable but even that broke
My heart hurts so much hopefully one day itll be whole
But i know that for now theres a big gaping hole
Our love was so vast kind of like space
Somethings missing now like flowers with no vase
But you are a flower that belongs in the wild
Not in a place where you can get stomped by a child
Youre like a mermaid you belong in the sea
I do regret that i was to blind to see
But the veil has been lifted i know that it hurts
You belong in the sky being free with the birds
You cant be tied down i dont know why i tried
It really feels like something inside of me died
These years together i brought so much pain
It must have felt like being at the beach in the rain
Now i am the one feeling the hurt
I keep saying im sorry but thats nothing but words

Betuel Apr 2018

Sorry

Blue eyes deep as the ocean
This whole time keeping me in motion
Moving me forward then a dead stop
For all these tears ill need a bigger mop
Never expected it to come an end
All out of love, but i have so much to lend
Nothing to say now except that im sorry
The nights are so dark now not at all starry
I clipped your wings put you in a cage
I understand now that youre full of rage
You wanted to fly tried to be free
If i could take it back now id just let you be
You loved me so much but i pushed you away
When you wanted to talk about feelings i had nothing to say
I would always get mad and put up a wall
It wasnt you, it was me that dropped the ball
You worked so hard for us for all of these years
Here im am now,left in nothing but tears
I wish i could take it all back now i need a time machine
If i did have one our love would still be pristine
I need to let you go now, you need liberty
All i can hope for is you find what makes you happy

Betuel Apr 2018

She Was My Favorite Thing in the World

Misawa,Japan 2013
A girl showed up and changed my whole scene
The first thing i noticed was the thing on her thighs
But nothing compared to her icy blue eyes
That flowing blonde hair, a smile so intense
I was attracted so quick it didnt make sense
We started a romance so crazy and wild
It burned like a wild fire not at all mild

She was my favorite thing in the world

After two weeks i told her i loved her
She said it back to me after that its a blur
We came back to the states, we created a life
A few months later i stabbed her with an emotional knife
I made a mistake and along came a daughter
The biggest problem? She wasnt the mother
We talked and we talked and it all seemed so good
But i know now that i misunderstood

She was my favorite thing in the world

She went on deployment and came back for a while
And when she headed back she was with child
9 months later we had a beautiful son
Little did i know that our problems had just begun
We had a daughter and one day a bad temper
I struck her little face and left it amber
I got arrested and got sent to jail
I couldnt believe i had struck our daughter so frail
I had to move out for a couple of months
We talked and i thought she forgave me but it wasnt at once
It was hard but we created a life
After all that she still became my wife

She was my favorite thing in the world

I kept messing up the **** kept stacking up
I dont know why i did it, her heart became shut
Didnt know this but she loved me no more
To her, loving me had become somewhat of a chore
She kept hanging on to the love we DID have
SHE didnt even know it had gotten so bad
I didnt trust her, she couldnt have friends
My minds my worst enemy, it soon comes to an end
I asked and i asked what was wrong
Then one day she told me “the love is gone”
She asked for divorce, she just wants her freedom
How could i have been SO DUMB?

I BROKE my favorite thing in the WORLD

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