skirts billowing in the cool wind,
the view of the town behind our backs.
her red nails clutching my rings,
desperately trying to find something tangible to hold onto.
pencilled in eyebrows in a permanent furrow.
we're planting him like a seed.
taking an object of permanence from the hearth at home,
from his slippers and his housecoat
and his comfortable bed
and lying him to rest on the hill.
she's standing by his side weeping.
it's like dragging an infant from its mother.
all she wants is to take him home,
dirt encrusted red nails
placing cold feet in warm slippers.
pulling a heart from its owner.
she's holding on harder than before,
pretending that my hands are his.
the grass blows like wispy tufts of his hair
and suddenly he is everywhere
and she is being ushered to the car
arms enclosed around her
white nails, pink nails, blue nails,
a manicured shawl of all the love we can give
to protect her from the pain of goodbyes.
skirts billowing in the wind,
turning back toward the town,
re-entering a world which he no longer inhabits.
a poem about my grandad's funeral, and my grandma's response to grief. it was a very strange, very cathartic day.