are not we all clouds
particles
pieces
droplets
atoms
together
but when we feel heavy
we
fall

-beckb 050116

i said
i wouldnt
but now
im afraid
its not
the aftermath
of the storm
its the fear
of straightening
the mindless mess
and finding
the last page

-beckb 042416

words
never easy
to say
always easy
to write

until now

words
never limited
to feelings
always spreading
to thoughts

until now

words
never ending
flowing seemlessly
always leading
to mindlessness

until now

now words
now they never
now to you
now they always
now I can't

now

words
never seeming
to fit together
always missing
what I want to say

now

-beckb 041816

crawling pain
seeping pain
numbing pain
consuming pain
stabbing pain
constant pain
throbbing pain
flickering pain
scalding pain
terrifying pain
piercing pain
stinging pain
exhausting pain
tearing pain
nauseating pain
quivering pain
shaking pain
tingling pain
sickening pain
agonizing pain
cramping pain
pinching pain
gnawing pain
pulsing pain
drilling pain
gut-wrenching pain
splitting pain
crushing pain
searing pain
excruciating pain
suffocating pain

ive felt
all of it
but
none of it
prepared me
for the pain
of losing
you

-beckb 012616

sometimes i wonder
why we spent
hours
too many it seems
talking,
wishing
but never
once realizing
that it
was not reality

sometimes i wonder
why i spend
hours
too many it seems
dreaming,
thinking
but never
once accepting
that we
werent meant to be

sometimes i wonder
why you spend
hours
too many it seems
saving
others
but never
once thought
that we
needed saving too

sometimes i wonder
why i still spend
hours
too many it seems
wishing
for you
but never
once praying
that we
would end up

together

-beckb 012616

this feeling
its like
all the tragedies
in my life
were stopped
with one moment
but it was more
than just
a moment
it was simply
healing

but at the same time
my mind is racing
with thoughts of
what now..?

this feeling
its like
all the pieces
in my mind
were mended
with one hug
but it was more
than just
a hug
it was simply
healing

but at the same time
my mind is racing
with thoughts of
what now..?

this feeling
its like
all the cracks
in my heart
were sealed
with one kiss
but it was more
than just
a kiss
it was simply
healing

but at the same time
my mind is racing
with thoughts of
what now..?

this feeling
its like
all the holes
in my life
were filled
with one love
but it was more
than just
one love
it was simply
healing

but at the same time
my mind is racing
with thoughts of
what now..?

-beckb 122915

humans
just pieces
put together
some say
masterpieces
some say
mistakes

to others
i say
youre
masterpieces
to me
myself
and i
youre just
a mistake

its like
jacks sally
a spool
of thread
carried
pocketed
it stitches
the pieces
back
together

but sometimes
i wonder
did she
always
bring her
thread
or did
she sometimes
"forget"
and leave
without what
mends
the broken

maybe
she realizes
im meant
to be
broken
today i
wont
let them
sew me
back
together

maybe
today
i want
to feel
myself
the way
i was
made
to feel

broken
made from
pieces
from different
puzzles
cut
in different
shapes
but somehow
pieced together

nowhere
near
perfect

i am human afterall

humans
just pieces
put together
some say
masterpieces
some say
mistakes

-beckb 110715