I'm drowning.
With pain too much
I can no longer feel.

I want to let it all out.
All the anger
All the sorrow
All that have been buried deep.

But every time I try
I always feel numb
I couldn't breathe.

The child within me
Is still cowering in fright.

Someone please take me out here.

I forgive you.
For all the pain you caused me.
For all the wounds and the scars you left.

I forgive you.
Even if you are not sorry.
Even if you still think you did me no harm.

I forgive you.
For not being there.
For leaving me when I needed you most.
For being the reason
Why I find so hard to trust people.
For teaching me that I have to be another person to be accepted.
For all the words you have spoken.
For all the promises you have broken.

For destroying me.
I forgive you.

I forgive you.
Because I no longer want to your slave.

I forgive you.
As I learn to forgive me.

I see a flicker of light
In the midst of the darkness I'm in
I see a flicker of hope
That I will get out here

I wait patiently for the time
When light will completely cover up
The pain, the sadness, the night
I will continue to wait

Let hope arise
In this heart of mine
Let hope arise
Let hope be mine

How many times
Will you break this heart
How many times will you leave it
Shattered, broken apart

Your words like glass
Pierce through my soul
Leaving me bleeding
Until I am no more

Empty
I feel hollow inside
There's this darkness
That even my smiles cannot hide

Scared
I wanted so much to hide
But I couldn't
I have to keep this facade

Broken
I feel up all the shards
Each tiny one piercing my heart
How long can I keep this up?

Safe
I just want to feel safe again
Save me from this darkness
Don't let go of my hand

I thought it was over
The feelings that I had for you
I thought I already shut that chapter
That one when I was so in love with you

But when I saw you yesterday
When you held my hand
And greeted me for my birthday
My heart skipped a beat

Funny how you still affect me so much
After all these years
Even after I learned
How your heart has already been won over

It's so funny
It's so unfair
How you still don't know
How you will never know
That after all these time
It's still you

One foot after another
Slowly but surely
I take the steps
Towards this new beginning

Fear is rearing its head
Anxiety crawling behind me
But I sigh and move forward
Looking beyond what I see and feel

This sea of emotions
Is trying to trap me again
But I will not be caught
Not when I'm so close

The new road is before me
And I must walk it
Slowly but surely
I must reach its end