It hurts thinking about seeing you with someone else
but its going to break me completely when you find someone else
its going to hurt really bad
because I know shes going to be better then me

Heart racing
Sweat dripping
Knowing this is the end
Don't expect
Nobody is listening
Blood leaking
The blind  is seeking
This world is hell
They wont help you
Can't you tell
At night you were yelling
You're the only one that can hear
The demons hovering over you
I know you were scared
I know you're tired
I can tell in your eyes
You're not fine
You can't even trust nobody
With all these back stabbers and lies
Looking like you're about to collapse
Pumping drugs in your veins
Hoping this day is your last
Going on your knees begging God for help
Of course our society doesn't know how “we” felt
I feel alone
All alone in the darkness
Locked up in my mind
I know I'll never be set free
It feels like God turned his back on me
Don't come in I'm slowly bleeding
Feeling drained , almost empty
Thinking about death is a good feeling
Nobody will never understand me
Nobody will ever care
But even if I die, death  I'll always fear
But its better then living
I know I'm the last person you would want to save
But it's so sad knowing people will change once i'm in my grave

I was with you but you were thinking of her
and now I'm with him and I'm thinking of you

By: Witt lowry

Don't do things because of others
Stop trying to "prove" to them you will be great
Its going to backfire
How about you start doing things
for you
let "you" be the reason not others
Start to prove to yourself
And watch things change

I lost myself 6 months ago
all because of you
I don't know who I am anymore
not only that you left
you took apart of me with you
and I can never get that back
because its behind me and I'm not looking back

I lost myself trying to forget you
trying to fix myself
I knew I couldnt stay in the place I was in
so I left
but I left my feelings behind
with the heartbreak that I call my past

but ended up bringing regret with me
its my fault for making you apart of me
now I dont know who I am anymore

hopefully I will find myself again
but this time not in someone else
but within the the body I call home
and with the soul that is lost in her own home


hopefully someone day I will learn how to be happy again
someone day I will learn how to love again
I will fall in love again
but not with another soul
but with the girl that knows how to love everyone else
besides herself

Dont you ever have that feeling that something doesnt feel right
but you follow it anyways
like God is telling you to stop
and leads you to another direction
but you dont listen and keep moving forward
so God has to make something go wrong or that person to hurt you
but your so ignorant and you take the pain and keep trying
and feel like God is going to let you do what you think is going to work
then hurt you so bad that you cant continue

yeah thats how I feel like right now

I don't want to continue running back to you
knowing that you don't want me back
I can't help to think there's hope
when deep down inside this is something that cant be fixed
I'm trying to hold on to the names he calls me once in a while
the names he use to call me while we were together
I want to move on from you
but I cant
I'm trying to fix something that is not going to change by loving them
even though loving them right now is dangerous
I have to slowly move on
because loving you right now is like letting my heart commit suicide
you say you love me
but you don't prove it
you call me by my names
but you don't mean it
you say you miss hearing my voice
but you don't even want to call me
you say all these things
but manage to always have an excuse for each and everyone of them
I'm trying to move on
but your such an addiction
A drug that is slowly killing me
but making me feel good
sadly I'm giving you the privilege
I'm letting you drag me to hell
but its only because your guiding me there
because your with me
I just cant let go what we had
and if I have to be sent sent to hell
just to feel that temporary feeling again
then I guess lead the way

This is me
Beautiful tragedy
You already had a glimpse of my problems
But you didn't hear about the other side of me

I put people before myself, I just care to much
I laugh a lot , I just can't help it. People say I'm funny so I guess I am
I'm not only a writer but I draw as well , its my escape
I'm adventurous and I don't only mean by traveling (I dont mean in a bad way either)
I don't love easily but when I do fall in love hard
I just can't help to love everyone, they give me hope in loving myself
When someone is knocked down I cant help to pick them up
even if the price is me being knocked down
I don't let people step all over me but I have been taken advantage of
I believe in raw beauty
I'm a supporter
I love to help and listen
I'm active , I can't sit for so long and no I dont have ADHD
I like to be alone but I also like to be with my friends


This is me
this is just a little taste
this is nothing yet
but this is me
Beautiful tragedy

He traded his gun for love

-Stephen

Its easy for people to fall in love with me
but its hard for them to hold on
to stay...

In my home self love does not exist

I don't want you to be the story I tell my future daughter while shes crying over a heart break.

Its a rainy day
I'm sitting on my bed under the sheets reading poems
with my breakfast besides me
for some reason
I felt different at this moment
looking around my surroundings and looking at my work
I couldnt help but to smile
this day ...well this moment felt different
I felt ....acceptance enter my heart
I felt free
but this is just the beginning