"I stole your heart"
he says while laughing and smiling

I whispered while giving him half a smile
"you didn't still my heart....I gave it to you"

Then we both stood in silence
thinking

people with mental illness
broken homes
****** up pasts
traumatic experiences
lost souls
or even broken hearts

deep down inside

wants to be saved
wants to be better
wants to feel love
wants everything they are going through
to end

that's why they surround themselves
with people that can relate
because they understand
and its all they know
but by doing that
its like playing
Russian roulette  
you either grow from it
or you stay in the same place

sometimes its hard to surround yourself
with  positive people
but sometimes thats a leap you have to take
out of your comfort zone to get better