snakes wrapped around my arms
like handcuffs they leave my wrists swollen
and
kissed
with baby bruises.

chills.


they wriggle like worms in the palms of her hands
as
the snakes in her hair protest against her scalp

she slides right past me
prickles, the goosebumps on my skin
her scales pressed against my back.
hands like granite..
she whispers in my ear.
her words
f
a
l
   l
i
g

out hoarse
and
   flat
right on top of my thick
skull

she tries one more time
to get me to look at her.
she wants me to understand the pain in her eyes.
but i close my eyes
and tie my eyelashes shut

so she can't slip in
so im not tempted to look at her in all of her
horribly
  chilling
       glory
       .

but the snakes still try to slither  in through the cracks in my exterior.
they come out of her head
flick there forked tongues in my direction
and slither into me.

there cold blooded eyes staring right into mine

*i can't help but shiver as if it's winter.

i bite his lips so hard
they bleed
but he still comes back for more.
he tastes
like copper
but he doesn't have a penny to his name.
he knows my type
and
he knows just how to get under my skin
and
i can promise you he's poisoning me, ever so slowly
with the things he says..
he's trying to peel off my exoskeleton.  trying to get me
naked

in his bed

or

on the
floor

at this point, i don't think he cares.

i don't know what to do when he teaches me things
or touches me inbetween my thighs
except bite off his head
and shoot him down.

you can't fight poison with poison though.
no one ever wins
and it's his move
so im just stuck.

but please believe me when i say i want to love your pain away.
i'm just use to kisses with fists
and my soul getting ****** and left in that alleyway with those dumpsters
my face pushed up against the brick floor..
it wasn't worth the drugs..or the time i spent trying to make myself not care.

but

i guess,
we are all just wasting time.

long story short, i don't know how to love and i don't think someone so lost in there own sadness is capable of understanding something so beautiful

so just know, that i am sorry

when i bite off your head
and **** up your soul, i didn't want it to be that way.

in another world maybe we could have been together.

please
forgive me
.

here take my broken bones
and
stuff them in the back of that beat up hearse
seal us up in that coffin
put a brick on that pedal

and

drive off the cliff

im not skyhigh with this feeling of feeling
i don't like it when my heart floats in my chest
or when he watches the stars and holds my hand like im some type of catch
i can tell you right here and right now kid, that i might as well be the rusty metal handlebars on your first bike.
i may look strong
but i can promise you that i am not.
you can pedal me long and far
but eventually
i'm gonna
give out.
give up.
and
give your heart away.

so what's the use in loving someone (something) so temporary?

i hardly know you
but i know that
you make me fly
and
i'm afraid of heights.
                     (you)
                           .

          as much as i wish you were
we're just not on the same plane of understanding, darling
i fly so high that i get lost in the clouds
and you're hanging onto my toes
digging your claws into my legs
can't you see that
I just want to be free..?

sooner or later
things are going to fall apart.
we are going to fall.
and
this love boat is bound to go up in flames.
nothing lasts long with me
the sharks in my head will chew you up and spit you out
and
ill eat away at your heart until nothing is left.
and yes
i know
that you can see the guilt in my ocean eyes
i admit that
i'm the sea monster who comes up and steals all your love, dear sailor.
i only take it from you
so you don't give it to her

i want your love
as much as a scubadiver
wants a ships anchor on their chest.

but the suffocating is kind of lovely, in its own way.

ive grown attached to you like the barnacles on my brain..
you're a pain
but i think i want you around

at the same time
you make me want to inhale all the ocean into my lungs
And sink to the bottom.
become like i once was
lost.
nothing.

and our plane has crashed
and i've broken my fragile wings like glass
on the fall into
this ocean
and this story i cried for you
be careful, tread some water
and
dont cut yourself on the glass I leave behind.

your the wreckage
and im the girl in shambles on the beach.
my heart didn't survive,
my emotions died
but you saved a little sliver of your love to feed the beast inside me.

i think i like you
but i thought i liked him
and he forced me
to bed
and tied me down with ropes
that felt like lies
and tasted like salt

and now i am
nothing,
   but a hermit crab


*trying to find a new shell.

i tell my bones to work until they're black and blue
because that's what daddy wants
but they don't listen to a word i say
and seem to have a mind of their own

we love each other
but we live separately, my bones and i
i'm a bit clumsy and i make a lot of clatter
at least that's what they tell me.
i scream in my sleep sometimes
and wake up whispering..
they cushion the blow though, my bones
they
give me something to sleep with at night
to
stop the terror from escaping my barricaded head
and past my prison bar teeth
like a river
forever flowing into
a sewer
i
pollute the world with hate and garbage


i guess im just lonely.
or i could be forgotten.



maybe.



or it could be just this city getting to me..
everything seems to stay the same
and the seasons never change;
sleeping on rooftops and seeing the same skyline, gets old
if you're
use to running barefoot and are too far from the ground.

i bought a calendar last year,
and ever since i've been
counting down the days until somebody
gives
a
****
but, this city is still empty and i am still alone.
it's funny, how it always seems to end up that way..

but at least now
after all of this back breaking work
my eyes are opened
and
i understand more then ever
why
you
all
left.


nothing lasts forever
i should have realized, but i was too busy being young and dumb.

people come and go
the city
comes alive at night
and dies
again in the morning

      but,
god forbid.
there comes a day when my skeleton wants to leave me.

i jumped into a well
to welcome you into my waters

leapt to my death
only
to catch you breathing
.

you were the only thing on her mind
but you made her skin rot
her teeth fell out of her mouth
like gems losing their luster.
with some kind of grace.
and you stole them out from under her pillow
and collected them,
strung them up
knotted them tight,
and wrapped it like a noose around her neck

you found a way
to make her **** herself
without her lifting a finger.