You are the yellow rose in my wildflowers
You are the sunrise after a bad night
you are the way the light makes rainbows
You are the laughter through the pain
You are the blood running in my veins
You are the epitome of perfection
you are the future I'm running towards
You are the rain keeping me alive
You are the love I have lost
You are the prince who stormed the castle
and left with someone else's princess

My head is pounding furiously
I've been on the verge of throwing up for days
I don't know why I'm here
An empty bottle of pain killers I abused
A cold floor to hold me
As I sleep away the bad feelings
I can barely breathe
Without you next to me
But lately I've taken deeper breaths
I know I'll get better one day
Without your help

I'm sorry
For writing
In books
And underlining
The best parts
I'm sorry
For wanting
To remember

They told me to write a poem
I drank some coffee
I read some lyrics
This is the best I could do

I wonder how many stars there are
I bet the number
Would take your breath away
Like you take mine
Every day

I met an angel
And I crushed her pretty wings
I made her fall so many feet
Just to catch her by surprise

I met an angel
And I showed her my own hell
I made her fall apart
Just to put myself together

I met an angel
And I showed her how to fly
I made her the wrong kind of high
Just to lose her to her pain

I met an angel
And I showed her my dark side
I made her fall in love with me
Just to try and survive

The silence of eternity is deafening
Thinking forbidden thoughts
Like the longing for a stranger's touch
No recollection of how I got here
Just the sinking feeling like falling
And a broken hearted blood painting
Longing for a smoke or maybe a shower
Drowning in the loneliness of lifelessness
Pondering the temptation to waste away
If I jumped in the void so willingly
Would you hear my everlasting screams?
Would you notice my absence of failure?
Left in her shadow every day, never heard
Would my silence be missed or go unnoticed?
Walking near the edge is like a ***** game
You won't win if you aren't afraid of falling