Maybe if I were prettier

or a little bit thinner

with longer legs

and a smaller nose

maybe I

Maybe if I weren’t so shy

or so busy

or messy

or irresponsible

maybe I

Maybe if I could sing

and if I could dance

or draw and paint

and write

maybe I

Maybe if I were less fickle

and picky and difficult

or blunt and offensive

maybe I

Maybe there may be too many maybes

to maybe tell me what may be

maybe

**—AA

off my shoulders

that has dragged

me down further

into the depths

of the waters

of inescapable depression

and undying insecurity

I just want

to surface from

this mundane moroseness

and float up

into the sky

into the warmth

on top of

the entire world

**-AA

A kiss that

Meant more than

My lips

My skin

My body

I just want

A kiss that

Fills me up

With warmth

And comfort

**-AA

this hurts so much

please just help me

take away the pain

and wash away the filth

in my mind and around my heart

please just help me

i want to sleep normally

and smile normally

and learn to love

please just help me

to love myself

and heal

and grow

to be better

to be whole

to no longer be empty

please just help me

find warmth amidst

the storm inside.

**-AA

come home to

a lovely pair

of warm arms

but now i

wrap my blanket

a little tighter

**-AA