Ayisha R

Ayisha R Feb 3

Captain.

Rooted in resilience—
but true strength also lies
in empowering others
and growing from;
criticism.

Embrace
constructive
dismiss the -ve—
for growth thrives
where wisdom
is definitive.

Sink
or
swim;
you decide,
captain.

⚓️

#leaderloneliness

Ayisha R Nov 2024

Pheromone.

You
next to me,
and I could smell
your musky
perfume,
your skin
infused with
pheromone.

On-again,
off-again.

This feeling
relapsing.

🔁

#relapse

Ayisha R Nov 2024

Sick and Fried.

Sick
and—tired.

****(ed)
and—fried.

Tested,
and
tried.

🔩🪛

Inspired from a person’s feeling of being (ab)used feat Sneaker Pimps’ Spin Spin Sugar as the background track to this.

_________

© Ayisha Rahman, 2024

Ayisha R Nov 2024

****, Would.

He’s not
meant
for
      this,
for
      that,

                               for you.

Instead,
he’s meant
       for
      that,
for
      this,

      but
                  not
                                     for you.

If he
wanted to,
then he ****
would.

****
—would've
done
            it
                  for
                            her.

When your thoughts, hit you hard, that your words become crumbled.

_________

© Ayisha Rahman, 2024

Nov 2024

n

l o n g i n g.

I've always been a little selfish,
a little spineless,
a little reckless.

I'll use anything as an excuse.
An excuse for the lack of -

l o n g i n g.

God, I wish I could change things.

Ripping off- each bandaid,
salting every wound.

God, I wish there was another option.

I am closing all the doors.
I am pouring gasoline.

God, I am so sorry.

I've always been -
a little mindless.
Always shown -
a little too much kindness.

I've just never felt so flightless,
I don't really feel like -
I should fight this.

I long to be just -
a little bit dramatic.

Ayisha R Nov 2024

You Know That Feeling?

You know,
that feeling
when you like a person—
and the person likes you back?

Blissfully
coincidentally.

You know,
this feeling
when a person likes you
and you somehow,
like them back?

Ignorantly
conveniently.

Reciprocally;
reproachable.

🪞

Reflection on mutual vs. circumstantial reciprocation between two people, which is often conditional on one’s self(ish)-interest.

_________

© Ayisha Rahman, 2024

#loverecriprocation

Ayisha R Nov 2024

Cookin’ Your Roadkill.

Pour couple drops
of apple cider vinegar,
onto the juicy
and plumpy
fresh meat.

Apple cider,
balsamic.

Anything
that could
wash away
—the taste.

🥩

Another perspective of pouring salt on open wound. Instead of running away from your past, you acknowledge.. cook, and eat them.

_________

© Ayisha Rahman, 2010

#roadkill