if I tell you that i love you
will everything be the same
if i tell you I need you
will you ever hold me again
if I tell you I dream about you
will you still call me every night
if I tell you , all I do is think about you
will you still let me hold you tight

What if there was more
Than we accepted there to be
What if , we are something more
Than we want us to be

What if we could carry our past
And mold it in something new
Create a place for us
Just for me and you

Where do the lines blur
When do we cross over
Even if love was there all along
Can we just start over ?

If I tell you I want you
Will you ever meet me again
If I tell you , it hurts too much
Will you take away the pain

What if , we started all wrong
Mistook the way we felt
Is it ok to be happy from
just what you get

If I tell you that I want to be with you
Will you go away
If I tell you , i can't even breath without you
Will you stay

If I tell you I've got nothing else to say
And I won't say a word
My feelings , you'll never hear
Because to lose you
Is something I can't bear
But sometimes I wonder
How beautiful it would be
If I told you
And you'd still be here

Tell me I'm 'gonna be fine
And this world won't leave me behind
That my sins will be forgiven
And the world will forget my crimes
They won't look at me like an animal
And my dreams wouldn't remind
That all the rage in my bones
Waits inside quietly
And be a reason for their demise
Tell me , I won't be forgotten
And that I'll be human once again in time
That my emptiness will let go
And the rage in my bones won't unwind
And punch the world on its face
For what it makes me do
And I'll fade away less sinister
And be oblivious of all the pain I once knew
Blood-stained hands to be washed in asphalt
Hiding the cold stare of the eyes
And I'll be left alone in my head
No ones 'gonna be lured by my smile
Because all it takes for the beast to get awake
Is a slight push on the friction less road
And when it's up and engaged
You won't be safe with your stick and stones
And all that it'll take to start the fire
Will be the rage in my bones
Tell me I'll forget the taste of the blood
That I thirst for every night
And I'll let go of all the demons
That've trapped me with their might
they infect me with their anger
Till I kneel down and oblige
Cut off all the sanity I have
They've broken into the home where I hide
They douse me with their love
ignite me with their hate
try to put it out When it grows out of control
But by than its too late
And I burn in the fire  of anger
With hate in my heart I'll be reborn
Made up of death and destruction
And rage in my bones

It's been a while and I haven't slept
I'm too cold now and I haven't wept
The numbness gave way to madness
And now I'm feeling fine
Now I smile once in a day Isn't it a good sign
But the urge to take a hit makes me weak and dissipated
It never let go of me even though I truly waited
And I'm slowly walking towards the edge of my story
Ready to fly for a while before I take a fall
Life is scattered In a nightmare
But I don't have the strength to burn it all
And I'm slowly losing sanity
Yesterday I saw a cow fly
It hissed at me like a snake
It hurts that it didn't even say goodbye
Before it took off for the meadows
Where I hope it gets beaten by the troll and dies
Enough of my sweet dreams
I'm not delusioned enough to believe 'em to be real
But I'm getting cold and old now
There is just no way that I can heal
And I fade away like the dinosaurs
But not as cool 'cause there's no super-volcano or a meteorite
And cobain told me I should burn away
Something about burning and showing them light
It's better to burn than to fade away
He wrote on his suicide note
Gun-shot or a nuclear holocaust
I seriously need some votes
I can't make my mind about how this stupidity might end
And to go out as decently as I can
Those religious folks I don't Want to offend
Or they'll waste everyone's time preaching about a god thats just too bored to even care
If he's there somewhere maybe of earths existence he's not even Aware
We're so tiny, I wonder if he can even see ourselves
Tell 'em apple guys to gift him an iPhone , so he can google himself
And see for himself that '****' is more googled than him
That he has lost his crown
All of the religious folks reading This ****
Please , don't frown
But still, in-spite of my pleas if you still want to
Fine , go ahead
Just letting you all know I'm 'gonna sin again
There's a ******* my bed
and I think you can make it out where it'll lead
I know I know , I'm going to hell and I'm never 'gonna be freed
But who cares
its not like they're 'gonna give em girls to me in heaven
There's no point to refuse now
And On the other hand someone said we can do whatever we Want to
Than hey , why is this **** even going down ?
I told you I'm deranged but you didn't believe
It was nice letting it all out and now I can sleep

A hollow smile
Waiting for a stranger to arrive
A door opens
And welcomes the dark night
A woman screams
Whispers pregnant with secrets
Searching for a ear
To lay down and give birth
To the horror of the night
Hidden and scarred
from the knives and stones
A wall of glass shattered
And the pieces feel so alone
Crumbling under the shoes of the night
Buried where they fell down
Running away from the mirrors
And the unleashed hell hounds
A face looks for the stranger
He's just outside that door
A  déjà-vu in the air
This Light has faded before
Womans screams turns mute
As a flash of  thunder roars above
A storms approaching this madness
A carnival of pain and hurt
Night grows even darker
Stars bid farewell to the sky
And you can see a glimpse of smile
In the strangers eye
The world is covered in blackness
Separated and segregated in Demise
A dog barks at a distance
As he chases away the wise
Nothing but a memory left to die
As the blades of hell
Kisses the women goodbye
A farewell to tomorrow
And the dreams that'll resonate
In the sky
Another act in the carnival
To kneel before and oblige

-doors left open
As the darkness invaded a home
Blood stained  prints
Accross the wall and into the hall
A silence of thorough quietness
Picture frames Wont talk
A struggle in the corridor
Marked by the broken frames and a vase
And a corpse sleeps in the corner
Darkness has engulfed its face
And the strangers footprints leads to the night
That befalls this bloodstained sunrise
And when the darkness  fades away
Cursing  under its breath about the approaching day
All that is left are dreams that lie shattered across the floor;broken
And a ****** hand print on the front door that was left open

He sleeps , at night he weeps
Lord take the pain away
He's too afraid to even speak
He walks on a path of fear
Upon a carpet of thorns
So much to say
But at every corner
he finds himself alone
He lives In a world , a place so far
Little pieces of dreams and broken hearts
He paints rainbows in black
A shade too dark to be real
There's no time left
Too many scars to heal
And the crowd makes him cry
He asks staring at the infinite sky
"why do I even try?"
They make a game of his insecurities
While he waits for an opportunity , so
Patiently
He just wants to see things patently
He wants them to see him clearly
But all they can see is a boy without an armour
So they stab him repeatedly
An antidote to be calmer
But the wounds are now in the open
Infected by a sinister thought
Maybe if he seeks blood in revenge
He'll go down as the 'boy who fought'
And as the world sleeps , dreaming at peace
A storms about to be released
He'll take them all
One by one across the line
It's now his turn to shine
They created a monster
And now It's time for another columbine.

Man made religion and now religion makes a man
Man controlled religion and now religion controls a man
They say religion unites when it only separates
It preaches peace only to render us desperate
It teaches us to be kind , to love , to do good everyday
And all we ever learned is to destroy And hate
man killed religion now religion kills the man

It started with just
One look in her eyes
I was lost in the moment
Closest I've been to paradise
She stood there
Unaware I even existed
And me dumbstruck
Wondering , how can I resist it
She was beautiful
Need more i say
One in the crowd
I was pulled all the way
And so it started
A love story I desperately wanted
And I prayed at nights end
For my one wish to be granted
I took a leap forward
I took a step
Mellow at the beginning
I had to control myself

And I told myself
That she's all I want
And for a while , all the love I had
I needn't flaunt
And surely but slowly
I went all the way
I messaged her , she back
I still remember that day
And so it began
The cycle of polite greetings
Turned out to be something more
And led to the silent meetings

She thought I was sweet
Different and a little cute
She was comfortable with me
Said I had a different attitude
She was all I ever dreamt of
Kind , funny and smart
And I wondered , where would I be
If she ever broke my heart
But that day never came
And nothing was the same
With her I was complete
And I would never be sad again

On a magical night
As we sat silently in the serene moonlight
She told me she knew all the secrets I've kept
That she felt the same , I was different from any other guy she has ever met
And as she whispered those magical words
I was the happiest man in the world
And finally my dream I could embrace
We sat silently , maybe it was fate

Now when I look back to those times
I can't help myself , I smile
They were as pure and beautiful it can get
A part of me I can never forget
I was in paradise
She was in her fairytale
Long days and longer nights
It's something one can't compare

But in Time I lost my mind
Years of love made me blind
It was my fault
And the cracks began to appear
And just like that
All my sanity disappeared
She begged , she cried , she yelled
Reminded me of the times we had
She restrained , she stabbed , I bled
She reminded me of the times we had
But I had enough of the love
The sight of it made my eyes hurt
All the fights and the drama
I asked myself , what's its worth

She told me she'll love me forever
But the time has come
For us not to be together
And like that she was gone
In a moment
I was all alone
And than it hit me
Oh, all the pain in the world
Right in my heart
And soon it began to hurt
I was lifeless , beyond sad
Her memories , all I had
And I drowned in the empty sea
A broken heart all I could be

Those days are gone now
And the tears have dried
But it still hurts me
Maybe I should have tried
What we had was beautiful
How could I just let it die
And I ask myself again and again
Without a reason I said goodbye

I miss her now
I miss her with all my heart
I let her down
She'll never be the same , I tore her apart
Does she still smile
Is she in love again
Has she moved on
And forgotten all the pain
Or is she still waiting
For me to come back in her life
Is she still dreaming
What I dream about every night

But she is gone
She's no longer mine
And I'll live rest of my life
In those times
That she is gone
And there's no where I can run
And I'll live the rest of my life
Chasing a ghost of someone

She is gone.

I gave up everything , everything that was mine
I forgot what I was just so she could smile
And I walked blindly behind her all the way
And I turned deaf to anything that anyone ever said
I held her hands when she was cold
I was there with her when she was alone
I held her , loved her and told her it'll be forever
Come what may , we'll face it together
And now when I look back I see nothing but lies
How could I become so blind that I couldn't see it in her eyes
She claimed she was innocent and she was honest in her ways
But it goes too deep they were'nt mistakes
She broke me down in pieces and told me it was my fault that I was too brittle
She was always covered in a cloak of innocence , I could see so little
But behind those eyes , there was no love and care
I was the culprit because I didn't share
And it was my fault that I didn't tell her it was all wrong
And in a moment of silence it was all gone
If you ever loved me you would have never gone that way
And I sip the poison you brew feeling so betrayed
I gave up everything in your name
And this is how you repay ?
I would never trust again oh you've shown me so much , I would never dare
Thank you So much for your love and care
All you've given me is pain that I just can't bear
Tears of love , tears for love everywhere

A silent symphony plays in the background
Soothing the atmosphere of its whispers and tears
There's an aroma of quietness all around
A hint of madness in serenity it bears
Tommorows cease to exist from now on
and can you not hear
Life singing the yesterday's songs
To be lost in the approaching calmness my dear
Time slows down to a halt
Too tired to move and caress the impending doom
And night saves the memory to be kept in a vault
Safe and hidden from the looming gloom
And I lie in ecstasy
a dream I longed to dream
A fading reality
To be erased of all that I've seen
And I recall my oldest friend
A hope that I banished long ago
But it haunts me again in the end
And the hope to feel alive grows
A spark in the embed darkness
Ignites the desires I locked away
And it possess me once again
To let me please my whites and greys
And I bleed of all that poison
That this world and I brew
Letting go of all the answers
That once my soul knew
Slowly but surely
The coldness I nurtured is replaced by the warmth of my sin
And I wonder with peace
What the marrow may bring
And I dream away my life
As I exhale my last precious breath
Forever lost in my sweet dream
into the approaching beautiful death

This world is a terrible place
And I can say no more
I've seen what we're capable of
and I would say no more

Once I knew a man
Full of life and hope
But in the name of religion
I saw him lying dead and cold

Once I went to a home
Full of smiles and joy
But in the name of society
I saw it Burned and destroyed

Once I saw a girl
She was smart and wanted to win the world
But a few deranged souls
Left her in a state that can't be expressed in words

Once I saw a man
He was wealthy and spent money on things that didn't matter
While thousands die
Because they can't afford food or water

This world is a terrible place
And I can say no more
I've seen what we're capable of
and I would say no more

Once I went to a man
who preached of love and faith
But the ones who weren't his kind
He told, they only deserve shame and hate

Once I went to a place
It was home to a thousand face
But I saw it as a prison for few
They said they were a different race

Once I met a a kid who could barely speak
He was little and fairly weak
He was abandoned in front of a gate
Now he makes a living selling himself by the lake

Once I thought I knew the world
A world made up of gold , silver and the pearls
But we ignore the world just a step away
A place for the realities and the horrors unheard

This world is a terrible place
And I can say no more
I've seen what we're capable of
and I would say no more

Sweet little innocent blue eyes
Wanna know what they hide
Hey cat-kitty-kat-doll
Wanna come down and forget it all
Look in my hand
There's a magic wand
Wanna play with it
And build castle in the sand
Crooked-cold-scary-crazy-old-man
Walked with a cane in his right hand
Wicked smile and pocket full of candies
Tonight was in her dreams again
Cruel-dark-sick-black-world
Wanna know what you did with her
For a candy she lost her smile
And you gave her demons before her time
She was small and could barely speak
One little candy all she seek
And you gave her a nightmare before her time
made a face and said its just another crime
Sweet little innocent blue eyes
Wanna know what they hide
Hey cat-kitty-kat-doll
Maybe one day she can forget it all

What 'god' do people talk about ?
When they say "he wont show himself untill you believe"
Maybe it's something I know nothing about
I'm wise but not a priest!
That he wont find us
if he's not found
What type of 'god' is he?
Who needs a prayer to be around
And what do they mean
When they say
"be true to him or else you'll be packed straight for hell"
So if we are atheists he just wont help?
Is he the same god who preached
Of equality and love
That no matter who or what you are
In his kingdom no one's 'gonna judge
That all man is same
And kindness defines a mans worth
A bad man with faith is good ?
But a good man with no faith, not so much?
Is he the same 'god'
My momma told me about ?
That he's the one who leads the way
When one's in doubt
Or is he the 'god' they know so well
They look so sure but I cant tell
If its ignorance or just old faith
What is it - their blind love or hate ?
And some of them just cant wait
To lay accross a point that their god is better
And so so great
What!.. There is more than one?
Different 'gods' for everyone!?
And if its true
What is religion if not his propaganda
And what are we if not his slaves
I have a question..
did he give guideliness
For the stupid rules we make ?
I say , why run behind things we cant understand
And portray our faith as pure
'cause if he truly exists
These things woudnt even matter anymore
Would you stop being kind and true
If tomorrow he didn't exist
What about the temptations you hide
Would you be able to resisit ?
And would you be the same
If you found out you really are alone
Or would you change
And thrash what once you called your home ?
Why build walls of glass
Which can be easily shattered
Be true and kind nonethless
And you'll find his existence dosen't really matter