my passion
reared it's head
and flashed it's fangs
you kissed the poison
right off its lips
it imploded
destroying
all i loved

unforgivable crimes
and their compartmentalized
little sins
shallow gasps for air
in between sighs of relief

i'll give you my wings
for a wave, hello
i'll give you anything
for you not to go

can you really
not feel the
electricity
between our skin?

I am the sea you built the wings to escape from,
Your heaven sails shine pristine in the November wind.
I lost the moon, lost the sun,
No chance for a sky covered in sin.
And here are the words, they begin again,
Reaching in ways my hands couldn't bear
Reaching for the one
Who honestly dear, just doesn't care.

your fingers don't match up
with the ideas in your head
and you know you've had enough,
when you found yourself wishing for what is dead
so say your goodbyes
and fall in line
with what lingers,
what is gone

it wont hurt for long,
no, the freedom is worth the wait
because one day we'll wake up
with a new mind we've known all along
take it as an ounce of fate,
if it wasn't meant to be, it goes as it must.

escape now, my hopeless Icarus

why waste your words
on one who wont ever hear
who wont really care
when the sentences fall in line
with the scars on your wrist
and when the period comes
before the comma
to send your fairy tales a different way home.

i've been biting at my fingernails
until their crescent white is gone
and i've been leaving you trails
on how to get past this over-stretched yawn;
a hiccup in our story

have you ever laid at the spine of a tree,
looked up
and saw the leaves?
they're falling, but not for us,
no, they fall for a greater cause
the change of november
will swallow you whole
spit you out
and leave you
alone

that last one's really
all i got for you now
melodies are chanting through my head
at ultimate speed;
i can't quite capture them.

lately i've been going back
to the things i used to run from
in pursuit of something cold

it appears i've lost my muse;
though i cannot bow,
give it a nice "cheers!"
and walk away, no
when all you've left to lose
ain't got no use for old veneers

i'm not quite sure what i'm trying to tell you here,
but it's something screaming loud
i hope someday you'll be able to hear
something so profound

teeth are clenched together
caffeinated intoxicated little words
brought as one
into one minuscule prose.
the boy who shines bright as the sun
in your eyes;
i destroyed it, i suppose
lost into one broken "never mind"

your tongue lapses into
minute broken shapes
along the jaw that gapes
for all the love you've sought to lose

i wish that i had known in that first minute we met
the unpayable debt
that i'd owe you
and those words were taken
from a pretty song
that no one really knew

i long for the i.v. drip
to keep me barely alive
and i am so jealous, mother
that death took you

it starts as an innocent sip
grows to an open dive
to have for you another
one drink became a few
and you've wound up like your mother

repeating yourself,
losing yourself
to a substance abuse
and the words, they melt
together, you lit the broken fuse
that sent us all to hell

so pray your worst
and break for the best
we will all meet our funeral hearse
our minds will count for less.

words come and go
like teenagers
in love
in spite of your
memories, your
private soliloquies
there's a bitter
promise in the
way you say
goodbye;
we are full
of reminders
we wish to forget
you keep bursting
at the seams,
flinging your broken pieces at me
the sun don't shine for us
and the moon just reflects.
the sky is not as endless
as it seems.
replace the ink with blood
and maybe you'll make a
difference
death comes for everyone
from the reader to the writer
even the innocent bystander
i see you in the stars;
in the breeze through
the trees.
i guess i'll keep you alive
in my dreams
love is lost, along
with the one who
created you, who
destroyed you
live a life in color
to fool them
you're alive
live your life alone;
make it alright
in your mind

my sobs sound just like yours,
mother
and my wounds look just like yours,
mother
with cuts on the wrist,
mother
and cuts on the throat
mother
i drown my sorrows in substance,
mother,
just like you
mother,
and i cant face the truth
mother
delusions abroad
mother
your replacement to this world,
mother
i am just like you
mother

i will love you till
the days grow solid
as one
and we will be together
one day
your mother, daughters,
and only son
we will coexist
as one