half orphaned little lady
with a half mended heart
and half opened ears
you are half awake
and half asleep
you are separated into
two halves

the walls are scratched in black
from unknown nails
and mindless knives
you tested the dullness
on an open wrist
and your skin
split
in
half

you missed a spot
on your ***** soul
keep cleaning,
for you've got
an ethereal growing mold
in those dark corners
where no one gazes

Every tree in the forest
Fell right at the same time
And nothing in that moment
Felt so far away from the sky.

You breathed your last
Through an autumn mist
The sky turned gray
And those leaves were a thing of the past.

Where will you go now,
Lost wanderer?
Will the clouds
Mourn for you;
The free bird?

why didnt i **** me
when i had the chance
bottles upon bottles
of ****** weapons
to ruin a life
or take it all away
why didnt i **** me
when i had the chance

i hope these pills take it all away
one for you, one for me, the other 33
for all the words i couldn't say
here is my epilogue, i hope
you read it

maybe they should have put me in the hospital
when they had the chance
maybe i'm just meant to be a patient
sleeping in the morgue
disembowel me with your finest of tools
i'm not sure my organs
are quite worth it
anymore

so now
i will suffer without you
find myself in the whiskey
lose myself to the keys
they print out letters to feel for

leave me alone
you said, with bitter emphasis
i cant stop crying
i cant stop victimizing
hate me until i
finally can curl up
and die

wrap those lovely fingers
tight around my throat
let me collapse
in your grasp
oh my only one left
why are you like this

the same hands that once loved you
are now the ones wrapped around your neck
i can't breathe so smooth
like the way your chest will rise
and fall

i promised no more
but came up with many
words you'll never see,
you wouldn't care to, anyway.
and we used to breathe together
so it's gotten hard for me to
without you

it breaks my heart
to look into your eyes
and see the sins i have deployed
upon your love
it's over, now
all is said and done.

i came, i conquered, i saw
i put it all together
just to tear it apart
and sighs can not expel the darkness
creeping through my mind.

bleeding will give you
no forgiveness
and screaming will hinder
no blows
stop your crying, young soldier
you cannot claim the victim this time

the same hands that felt you
are now gone forever

sweetness dripping
down your throat
and artificial energy shooting
through your veins

emptiness is sitting
cross legged beside you
spelling all the names
of the people your eyes brushed past

and you are alone
with your sorry self
not much for you to say
to the one whose come to be this way

the air is cold and crisp
waiting for you to seek out the sun
and the winter winds are sneaking up on us
to blow our minds to waste

infinity, and the time it takes to get there
i will not chase forever
the trees are humming vibrations full of
love,
life,
light

can you hear them?

friendship
the bond between two strangers
bringing them together as one
fragile yet empowered
with makeshift strings of imaginary steel

lust
the demon between two outsiders
bringing them closer
but not any deeper than the skin
hiding from what burns within

love
the enigma holding us all together
and pushing us farther apart
it is the essence of friendship
and the enemy of lust

you
were my best friend
and we fell prey to lust
but we still have that love
don't we?

i
haven't lost it all, yet
but soon enough, at this rate
i must
unconditional
and irrevocable
i will always love.