I misinterpret the little things you do
because I want so badly to believe
that you feel the same way that I do
So I magnify every tiny detail,
every act of kindness
to be an act of love
or longing
because that's what I feel
So every smile you send my way
every time you ask me to lunch with a group of friends
every goodbye hug
means so much to me
but is probably pointless to you

I misinterpret the little things you do
because I've never been in love
I don't know what it's like
to care for someone
and have them care for you
but I think
maybe I could be in love with you
So every brush of your arm
every hand you give to help me up
makes me sink deeper into longing
but is probably pointless to you

I misinterpret the little things you do
because my ego is simultaneously so inflated
and so small
I can't decide if what I'm thinking
is how you actually feel
or my feelings
reflected onto you
Each shared laugh
each fleeting glance
Is so confusing
I turn in circles trying to figure out what's right,
what's really going on in your head
And nothing has ever been
so meaningful to me
but I know
it's probably pointless to you

your name
rolls off my tongue
like it was all I was meant to say
but I try not to say it
too often
because I feel like other people
are tired of hearing it

I was in a great place in my life
Everything was going right
and I was happier than I'd ever been
I couldn't find a thing to complain about
But the way that life works
everything has to be in balance
You can't have positive
without negative
So I did not expect my good streak
to last very long
but it was still a surprise
when every good thing I had
flipped upside down
When every positive aspect
negated itself so that I was right back to where I was before
It breaks my heart
but I accept it silently
I don't complain because I don't want anyone to hear
how miserable I've become
In the short time I've been away
I don't want anyone to know
the depression I'm feeling
Because we were all doing great together
and I don't want to be
the first one to fall

I've never heard a noise so soft and low
as your name whispered to my heart
It crept in, making itself at home in my thoughts
hiding in corners and peeking out whenever you're around
sticking its head right in my blind spot
so that I stay oblivious
but everyone else can see
People ask me about it
and I'm genuinely surprised
because I have no idea what they're talking about
it started as a whisper
and the gradual crescendo was lost on me
I didn’t even realize it was there
until I heard her name in your heart
ringing louder than mine