Every now and then,
I can feel you
Everything's the same,
I can't get through.
You're slowly damaging
Every part of me
I am slowly dying,
Poisoned and unhappy.
Once the day will come when
You will understand
That you're giving me pain
So much that I can't stand.

Just let me go,
I can't deal with that.
I don't need to know.
Stop all that chitchat.

Every day and night,
You hunt my thoughts.
I wish I could fight,
But my heart isn't tough.
Are you going to
Leave me alone ?
There's a mark of you
Deep inside my bones.
You're poison,
Running inside of me.
I need, just for a second,
For you to let me be.

Between the lights
There is a place
Brighting up at night
The corners of your face.

It's dark and almost empty
Except for horrible thoughts
It's just unnecessary
And your heart isn't tough.

Neither of us like it,
Every problem opens another door
But we have to deal with it
It's not something we can ignore.

We can't always be strong
But two is better than one,
We can sometimes be wrong,
Life isn't about perfection.

Between the lights
There is a place
Where we can fight
Then fall into your embrace.

But when the doors are closed
And nothing can escape,
We can finally be close
I can see the smile on your face.

We have talked to each other
About that place we don't want to visit
But if we must, to be together,
Then be it.

Although there is nothing better
Than that moment
When we forgive each other
And forget the arguement.

Then I can spend the night with you,
Hold you tight against me,
Be as still as a statue
When you kiss my body.

They say love can't be perfect.
But what do they know about perfection ?

Why do I have to make such a fuss about everything ?
It's like I can't even control myself anymore
Why do I get mad at every tiny thing ?
This is not what I wished for.
I don't want to fight
For something I don't believe in,
Makes me cry at night,
And tears cannot be unseen.
I hate feeling so powerless,
What exactly am I supposed to do ?
Your kisses are like a carress,
But it hurts so much to be with you.

This is not what I expected love to be like.

I guess everyone has to wake up someday,
But I had dreams and hopes about this.
And sometimes, you throw our arguments away,
But they cannot be solved with a kiss !
So now, here I am, what do I do ?
Is there really a sense to our story ?
I know this feeling, I know I love you,
But you can't just keep hurting me.

I just wish you could understand.

Or is this all my fault ?

So here goes our story.
You left everything behind you,
And whatever you think of me,
I fear it might be true.

Apparently, I was just a mistake,
And now you want to let me go
But you give less than you take,
So you can leave , I won't follow.

What did you think I would do,
Lay on my bed, cry all day long ?
You thought I couldn't live without you ?
I am happy to prove you wrong.

You said you wanted to stay friends,
Please, what kind of ******* is that.
In real life, it never happens,
I know we won't talk again.. ****.

Leave, step out of my life now,
You're not wanted here anymore
I've gotten over you somehow,
I won't cry for you on the kitchen floor.

And next time we come across each other,
You will say « Long time, no see »
And I'll be like « Yeah, whatever,
You don't mean anything to me. »

I took out my key, opened the door
Watched the living room just for a second
Ran upstairs, left my suitcase on the floor
But this is all my fault, I reckon.

I'm sorry for the mean things I have said
And the bad things I have done,
I'm sorry I can't keep you out of my head,
I'm sorry if I miss you a billion.

I slowly stepped into my room,
With my eyes closed with fear
When I suddenly smelt your perfume,
I opened them and made everything appear.

I'm sorry for always being in a bad mood,
I'm sorry I can't be happy all the time
I'm sorry for the times I am so cruel
I'm sorry for thinking you're all mine.

I didn't look at my small bed
With a sad look on my face,
I just looked at the window instead,
I looked at all this empty space.

I'm sorry I can't live without you,
I'm sorry if this is too late
I'm so sorry but there is nothing I can do,
I just have to accept my fate.

I thought I could be strong enough
To understand, to start a new life here
To stop crying, to face the truth,
But I broke down in tears.

I'm sorry for always thinking too much,
I'm sorry for being such a baby
I'm sorry I really like your touch
I'm sorry for the times I act crazy.

I asked myself what I was going to do,
How on Earth I was going to survive
You're my everything and I'm nothing without you,
This is one of the things you don't realise.

I'm sorry for being a waste of your time,
Because you deserve much better than me
I'm sorry I can't get you out of my mind,
But you're just so amazing, and I'm just so me.

I sadly sat down on my bed,
My mind full of moments we had together
I suddenly remembered things I have said,
And they made my happy memories bitter.

I'm sorry for when I hurt your feelings,
Because I know I have but I didn't mean to
I'm sorry for saying stupid things,
That's just me and there's nothing I can do.

I looked up at the ceiling,
And watched the bulb slowly dying
I compared it to my life : close to the end
I can't stay so far away from my best friend.

I'm sorry for not being there when you need
Someone to talk to, or just hold you tight
I'm sorry for the times I was being stupid,
I'm sorry for keeping you awake at night.

I then stood up and just stayed there,
Imagining I was holding you in my arms,
I just watched the empty air
Tears in my eyes, shining like stars.

I'm sorry for spending the nights crying
When I should have been happy to be with you
I'm sorry I can be so annoying
I'm sorry I can feel something so true.

I slowly sat down at my desk,
Took a paper and a pen out of my drawer
Why did I do that ? It was grotesque
I started writing a poem about us together.

I'm sorry I'm too emotional,
I'm simply sorry for being me
But most of all,
I'm sorry for being sorry.