I live in both realities. One in the light, the dream, and one in darkness, the real world. The light is welcoming.  Here true happiness is achievable. True love exists. I can be happy with myself, and my attempts to do so aren't futile. The dark is cold but true. The real world. No one can ever be truly happy here. True love doesn’t exist, for one will always love too much and one will always love too little. Attempts for love are thrown away like nothing because here you are nothing, just like everyone else. The cold truth. Love isn't a gift, it's cruel and unforgiving. Most important, I will never be happy with who I am. I am nothing.

I try to leave this trap you've caught me in
I know it's all in my head
but still your teeth sink in

You blame me for the **** you've put me through
I thought about my pain
It all leads back to you

You think it's my fault if I hold your words true
Then why do you always tell me
things I already knew

If all you do is reject and insult
How else am I to react
I see now this is the only result

I can only hurt from things that you've done
It never ends, I must end it
I hope you've had fun

I tried to get over you
Now I want to be over this
I tried to meet new people
But the people make me sick
I don’t want to love another
I’d prefer not to love at all
They say there is no trouble
Right before the fall

A new dance,
A fretful prance,
The lion celebrates her change.

No more fears,
No whispers in her ears,
No more nightmares to devour the real her.

She is the real her.

I love you
I feel so sick
keep saying it
I want to be free
I hate how much I love you
Please don't take it away

He says he'll change
and I can only guess
that all his love went down the drain
He'll never tell what happened
and I have only to think
that all his trust has been abandoned
I try to explain
I try to say I'm sorry
but all he can say is that it's his blame

Today he says he's changed
I say I've changed too
All his trust went down the drain
So now my happiness has too

I must be insane
You taste so sweet, I can’t resist
But I’m not sure its worth the pain


I keep shoveling with my chips
God its burns my ******* mouth
But still I take another dip

I mixed the pepper with cream cheese
after chopping in the blender
And now I eat it as I please


The peppers set my mouth on fire
The dairy doesn’t really help
it kind of ***** that I’m a crier


I should avoid wiping my eyes

Don’t want to spread the burn

but  I subscribe to candied lies


Oh my god. This spice is hell

Still I’m eating candy California
The heat is making my tongue swell

Tied and gagged, I just cry
my throat hurts, everything burns
I just might die

One day, Curious Lion will be Great Lion.
She just knows it.

Farewell*, little daydreamer. Your time has passed. It is time to grow. An adventure awaits in the cruel reality. One much too harsh for the likes of you. So much to learn. You will one day know the love you want to yours;f. I, the curious lion, will bring you the joy you so wish for. Goodbye, old friend. I'm sure I will see you again.

My form is changing
I can't tell what it is
Its bubbling, twisting, churning, shaping
Indistinguishable I can't tell what it is
You ripped away my face now
You stole my identity
I thought I was happy
What the **** did you do to me?
I don't exist I'm a blur
I don't know but it hurts
I can't take it, I can't ******* do this
How could you think to put me through this?
What is my name? Do I have a face?
It burns! I just want to leave this place
My skin peels off and grows again
or melts off every now and then
I can't tell what it is. I can't tell what I am
It burns! I'm changing again and again
It happens so fast, I'm not even real
I've been torn apart, I don't think I can heal
Give me the pills, I want to step off the sill
or rock back and forth until everything's still.
My face is rotting, in no way alive
You left me, how did you think I'd survive
Gotta just do it, I won't revive
take a step back, leap into the dive
Face towards the concrete
Can't eat, Can't sleep
Falling forever, this is the end
I lied to you, I don't want to be friends!
I have to forget you, Get out of my head!
God you make me wish I was dead
You stole my identity, I'm not part of whole
I'll never get over this 'til you return what you stole
You know what it is, right out of my chest
Some might be gone now, but give back the rest
You're burning me down How can't you see!
What this is-


It's just not me.

Wish you were nothing
wish i was dead
I can’t wait
to live again

can’t help me right now
I just need to spend
another moment
alone in my head

Wish you would love me
Wish you’d forget
That i am nothing
Leave me instead

Please don’t waste it
your precious time
Im not worth the suffering
Not yours or mine

I said that I love you
Surely that's enough
I'm nothing but nice
And still you're so rough

I'm trying to change
It's all just for you
Still you hate me
Why so cruel?

I try so hard
I just want to please you
Still you hurt me
I wish you knew

I'm so blind
I guess I'm a fool
I've fallen so hard
**Why so cruel?

I'm as pretty as a bird,
and as tall as a tree,
if that’s what i want.
And you can't tie me down,
because I'll always leave.

Im as fast as a hummingbird,
and rugged as a stray,
if that’s what I please.
You can clip my wings,
I'll still fly away.