don’t you ever think that you were easy.
you were a piece of work, a task that needed constant action, an assignment that needed to be taken with caution, but i still did it.
i still loved you.
i loved you so unconditionally.
i loved you at your worst and your best and i loved your flaws and your mistakes and i loved your smiles and your voice and i loved you when you didn’t love yourself.
i handled you as if you were fine china, fresh and clean, even though you were far from such purity.
i dare anyone else to love you in such a way.
i dare anyone else to love all sides of you equally.
i dare anyone else to love you enough to sacrifice anything and everything for you the way i did.
i dare anyone else to love you well enough to know how to handle you.
i dare anyone else to put up with you even after you’ve made them feel as **** as you made me feel.  
i dare anyone else to love you enough to let you break their heart endlessly for the sake of being with you.
whoever she is, she won’t be half of me. she may have a brighter smile with eyes lighter than mine, she may have skin smoother and more beautiful than mine, she may have a laugh more admirable than mine, she may have a body more fit than mine, but she will never have a heart as big as mine for you.

not a nerve in my body is able to let you go.
when i’m asleep, you’re in my dreams.
when i’m sober, you’re all my mind dances around.
when i’m wasted, you’re all i speak about.
when i’m lonely, your embrace is all i want.
how can’t you see how in love with you i am?
you’re every love song i hear.
you’re every fantasy i have.
you’re every tear i cry.
put me through hell and bring me back, just as long as you hold my hand through it all.
trap me in a room for hours with nothing but your company.
become my sanity rather than my melancholy.
prove my ideas of love wrong.
show me what it means to feel complete.

no one sees what i see in you.
they look at you and turn to whisper jokes about your appearance while i look at you to admire,
they hear you and hate on your tongue that keeps running while i hear you and hear something better than my favorite songs,
they touch you and feel disgust because of your uncontrollable wants while i touch you and feel every nerve in my body electrify.
so helplessly and desperately in love with you, i ignore the things i shouldn’t and chose to cherish the little things that gravitate me to stay until i find myself in ruins.
i’m internally lit up by a fire you set up in me, please don’t let me burn out.