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Ashley Rodden May 2014
I'd paint you like a blank canvas
into a masterpiece created by my hands alone,
I'd write you, your very own fairy tale,
I'd smear my ink across your blank pages
into the best story ever told,
I'd find and fine tune your inner lyrics
into the most beautiful of songs,
I'd learn the dance to the rhythm
beating inside your chest,
I'd be the keeper of your inner most fears
I would hide them away
so they would lack the power to cause you anymore tears,
I'd safeguard always the keys that belong to all that is you,
I'd stand beside you never to fail or waiver
because my love for you would be constant and true,
I'd treasure your existence and beautiful soul,
I'd lay the world at your feet,
I'd bring you the moon,
I'd capture fallen stars
give all my wishes to you,
I'd walk across broken glass,
I'd swim the ocean floor,
I'd shelter you in any kind of storm
I'd protect you by taking the force of the blow,
But mostly I would love you
until time is no more....
Ashley Rodden May 2014
You loved words more
than the person
who inspired you
to write them...
so, now
what do your
words even matter...?
Ashley Rodden May 2014
wine and cigs my only friends
a cool night breeze whispers to me
lighting strikes in the distance
crickets sing so peacefully
but in my mind
its still now
without the sound of you here breathing
lonliness consumes me
sadness engulfs
memories are stalking me
shadows loom around
stars in the sky no where to be found
it hurts every drag i inhale
never felt this lonely until you were
no where to be found
Ashley Rodden May 2014
I scraped my knee
when you tripped me
But, it's cool
I found a band-aid
so now it doesn't hurt
falling for you.
Ashley Rodden May 2014
You broke a promise again
Imagine that
Me being let down by you
Left to grovel on the cold hard ground
What an emotional wreck I turn into
When you don't do the things
You say you're going to
Breaks my hopeful heart right in two
Devastates my once excited soul
That you can hurt me like you do
Why?
So little to you do I mean?
What is so hard about keeping your word to me?
Isn't that all most men have?
You can always justify anything though
It's almost impressive how you always make yourself and your side sound so good
You never run out of answers but
What does that matter if you can't hear my questions...
So tired of being made to feel inadequate and less important
You want a two way street...?
Then maybe you should learn to share the road
Why must we always compete?
I thought we were on the same team...?
You can be so cruel with your words sometimes especially when
You spit them at me so carelessly
Didn't anyone ever teach you to think before you speak?
You like so much to debate
Well now allow me to deliberate about what I really feel and think
You don't want me to be so emotional or upset
But how should I react
When the person I love is breaking the heart inside my chest...?
You're so much smarter than me so please tell me
How to feel, what to think, and who I should be
You're right about us sounding good on paper
Imagine that you being right about something....
That's got to be a curse and yet it you embrace
Sorry I couldn't surpass your expectations
I know you always wanted to find an exception
To all your rules about love and life
Maybe someday you will find it
And for her sake I hope she has no feelings
Sorry you think I'm spoiled
Guess I thought the Queen of your heart deserved to be put on a pedestal
If I'm going to be a princess
Guess I should find a prince charming to take care of me then
What's so wrong with me wanting things my way for a change?
Don't you know all you would give me you'd get back ten fold?
Never thought I wasn't worth your undivided attention
Didn't realize your time was so precious
Your life is definitely more important than mine though
I'm just a nobody living in *** ****** Missouri
Didn't realize I was dating such a big shot...
Guess because I loved you before you became so hot
I loved you before you got so busy
I loved you when you were hopeless and un-happy
I was there for you to lean on or to listen whatever you needed
You're the only man I've ever believed in
I let my guard down
Let myself fall
Let you tear down all my walls
Disregarded my intuition and my gut
Passed the point of no return
Stood still when instinct told me to run
Don't I give you all you want and more?
I'm always at your beckon call
Now tell me what the hell for?
Is this all in vain?
Should this not torment my soul?
Tell me why I don't deserve all you have to give me?
Why don't I deserve love that is true?
Why do you get my hopes up
And then let me down like it's no big thing?
I'm in love with you, though I never wanted to be
And this is why because what you view as love
is
*******  killing me...
You get all of me so why don't I get all of you..?
Ashley Rodden May 2014
That night was awful
Like a tornado
Ripping through my emotions
Now I'm left cleaning up the aftermath
of your destruction
You were cold as a blizzard
Causing hypothermia that kills
Is that how you really feel?
No cure for the void you left when
You looked right through me
As though I had disappeared
You just sat contemplating the reality you dwell in
with a cigarette between your lips
I could see the demons dancing in your eyes
I know how they haunt your soul inside
I heard every word you said but you had to of been
talking to someone else...
Because the things you said left the one you say you love
torn into little demolished pieces of myself
And I'm really trying to understand
But it's hard when the one I love has hurt me so bad
And the pain doesn't scare me
I've felt it all before
What scares me is losing you,
losing us, my heart, and everything we are...
Ashley Rodden May 2014
You held my hand
while you cut me down
We just got started
but it's over now

You're smiling in the spotlight
Dancing with the night
And I've left your mind and heart
I'm tired of buying your time
When I get nothing in return

I should of known better
But I couldn't resist your open arms
I couldn't help the leap when I was tripped so hard
Now I'm left just falling apart

For all I say you always say more
And I can't give you what you've been looking for
You were too good to be true
Your charm always crept closer and
Like a fool I fell pride and all for you

You're the wiser one
Now I stand by the river I cried
And I let myself drown
You swore you'd stand beside me
Now I'm not there beside you
I was yours for the taking
But that was a mistake
I settled for wrong when I ignored the right thing

We had magic but it turned tragic
My life has been infected
Since you left me neglected
I know you're probably sorry
We were always so sweet
But you deceived me
I'll probably regret it
But it's too late now because
you've lost me somehow

"I love you" didn't mean much
My mind is gone now
Deep inside my tears I'll drown
I was a victim and it cut like a knife
Why did we ever have to kiss?
This has turned to a hit and miss

We spent so much time now that's no more
I should of never let you hold me baby
I didn't give into you on purpose though
So tell me how you managed to steal my heart
I want to forget how your kisses tasted on my lips
But there are some things I'm sure to never forget
I tried to keep you amused but I'm tired of being used
And since I'm not your everything
How about I be your nothing
Baby's so tired of hurting

All who love are blind
And our love was on fire
So we danced with desire
But now we've turned to ashes
And the smoke is in our eyes
Ignorance is kind to the heart and mind but
Pain in truth is all you'll ever find

Time can never mend the disappearance of your best friend so
Please don't patronize me
Why hurt each other more with words we want to say
Wish I could just turn down all these voices in my head
But I can't so instead
I'm going to close my eyes
So I don't have to see
the love you don't feel for me

You were always the mysterious one
With your dark eyes and crazy hair
Into fashion but too cool to really care
And you failed to notice how
My heart for you would bleed
I was always on my knees
You're thoughtless words always broke my heart

You were always so brilliant smoking your cigarettes
and talking over coffee
Your philosophies on art and life
You'd teach me of honest things,
Things that were daring, things that were clean.
Things that you thought about life and what it to you did mean.

And I must of mistaken you for somebody else,
Somebody who gave a ****,
Somebody more like myself
And now I'm too tired to care about wrong or right
Because I surrender to you in this fight...
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