Ashley Nicole

Ashley Nicole Apr 2013

You're here.
But you feel so gone.
You slipped through my fingers,
What went wrong?
My support,
My confidant,
One of my best friends,
you were,
but now,
I'm really not so sure.

Ashley Nicole Apr 2013

To Anonymous :

Have you ever been so angry, that your mind just stops?
Your body trembles?
Tears well up in your eyes?
So angry, that you just feel...betrayed?
Lost?
Like you can't trust anyone:
With your
Thoughts,
Ideas,
or even
Opinions?
An anger that drives you to feel
that you will never believe something again?
That's the anger you make me feel.

Ashley Nicole Apr 2013

Family

You're supposed to make me feel
Safe and secure.
You're supposed to help me through
The good and the bad.
My shoulders to cry on,
The ones I can always rely on,
Ones that will never judge me,

But I guess that I will never fit the stereotype of
*"One, big, happy family"

Ashley Nicole Apr 2013

Nothingness

Into the darkness I go.
Right?
Left?
Straight?
I do not know.
Consumed in the nothingness;
Peace washes over me.
A florescent light appeared not to far from me.
A warmth filled me;
One that I wish will never go away.
"Please, don't go."
I heard a cry.
It came from the darkness from whence I was.
My breath caught in my throat,
The voice called out my name,
it cracked as the person spoke,
"Please don't leave me."
I turned back to the darkness,
Ignoring the voice.
I took the step to the warmth.
"Goodbye."
I whispered,
as a single tear rolled down my cheek.

Ashley Nicole Apr 2013

Horrid

I glanced at the thing in front of me.
It's unruly hair,
nasty teeth,
horrid smile
Frightened me into taking a step back.
The ogre mimicked my movement.
I stared at the thing;
taking in it's total appearance.
Huge thighs,
Round stomach,
Double Chin,
Dark, emotionless eyes.
I blinked, trying to rid this beast from my sight.
But it remained.
I took a step closer to the thing.
Once again, it mimicked me.
I reached my hand out;
The horrid thing did the same.
But right before our out-stretched hands made contact.
I clenched my fist, drawing my arm back.
The beast followed my every movement;
coming in contact with my fist
dead in the middle of us.
Shatter.
Bye, bye ogre.

Ashley Nicole Apr 2013

Happiness

You come and go,
Like you don't want me to see you,
To feel you.
Gone.
Just like that.
When I finally relax.
You're there,
But suddenly, you leave.
Just like everything else.
You're gone.
Leaving me, to once again
Fend for myself.

Ashley Nicole Apr 2013

Addiction

I try so hard not to notice
When I go without that one thing.
The one thing that makes me break.
Cry.
Scream.
The one thing that makes me weak.
I look away, ducking my head.
Trying to hide from it.
But it calls me in.
Just like every other time,
I resist.
Turning my back.
Trying to walk away.
But in the end,
Temptation takes over.
And I know,
That I truly am addicted.