Once in a while,
I'll be out late at night,
Staring at the twinkling stars,
My mind wandering to every aspect of life.
My mind wandering to the only two I can trust.
Their pain so real
And so much more than my own.
So, as I sit there staring at the stars,
I wonder why I got blessed with them.
Those two who keep me alive,
When I feel like I'm nothing more than another pain to them.
A shooting star goes by
And I wish their pain gone.
I wish that I could take their pain for them
And make them forget me.
So it will be easier for them
When I'm finally gone.
I feel myself slipping into the darkness
Every day, the feeling gets stronger,
my hope for a better life,
for a better society,
gets smaller and smaller.
The more I think about it,
the more it consumes me;
the thought of death.
But then something stops me;
more like two things.
without those two,
I know the darkness would have already won.
We used to hate each other,
Not daring to look at one another.
Hate and fakeness poured from our words to one another.
But then something changed:
Real smiles and heartfelt laughs
Words of kindness
Best of friends.
Together, we went through so much,
Telling each other so many different things.
Together, I felt no one could stop us,
Until high school came.
Slowly we were drifting,
I could feel it more every day.
Then, we stopped texting,
And small talk became our language.
Now, I feel I lost a sister,
But I want one thing to stand true,
It doesn't matter that we've grown apart.
I know I'll always be here for you.
Through thick and thin,
we were together,
But as time went on,
and we grew older,
we both realized, but didn't say,
*Good times can't last forever
We are blood,
But barely talk.
Years it has been,
Since we've last seen each other;
Spoken to each other.
I've always thought you've resented me,
That you didn't come back because of me,
Something I did,
Something I said.
But now that we talk again,
That you did not leave
Because of me.
Sometimes I feel,
Like everyone hates me.
No one can stand me
No one can love me.
Maybe if I leave
I can make everyone happy.