I love the way
your perfume
                     lingers
on my clothes
   long after
   we've said
           goodbye.

                        Although
                        it's not the same
                        as holding you in my arms.
                        I enjoy the comfort
                        it brings me.

"I'm sorry, forgive me"
"I'll never raise my hand at you
I swear"
"I love you"

These bruises on my face that
I tried to conceal are finally
Wearing me
Not all the make-up in the
World can beautify the tallies
Of your anger that adorn my
Skin

Your heart beats anger
And it courses through your veins
Pulps of blood I tried
To hide with layers of clothes
Have finally stained
And I can't lie anymore

You call this love?
Is love the purple bruises
Plastered across my pale skin
That have been left behind
By the velvety hands I used
To yearn for?

You love me
It's okay
I should not be afraid
You were just blowing
Off steam
You love me

I've been swimming in this
Pool of denial long enough
To know that I can't really
Swim, I'm drowning
And my feet are firmly
Fixed on the ground

I am afraid of
The monsters lurking
Behind the iris of your pupil
The demons that lurk
Behind your shadows

I haven't seen my mother
In a few months
I'm scared she'll see behind
The facade I put on
She'll tell me
"Baby, you need to leave"
And I don't want to leave
He doesn't want me to leave

My head has been banged
Across the kitchen walls
More than it has been raised
These walls have been repainted
Repainted, and repainted
My scalp has been snatched
More times that I've cared to
Admit

I'm ashamed to say
I've traded parts of me
For shambles of trust,
A lot of bruises,
Rough ***,
Infatuation,
And called it love

Slowly my happiness fades
Remembering every word you said
We are gonna stay forever and ever
How was i to know we were never meant to be together

This heart doesn't feel any pain
When all my efforts went in vain
The walls were broken with a chain
But it doesn't have a soul to gain

The promises you made were all a lie
Who knew it was our last goodbye
We said we'll always stay nearbye
Who knew it was our last goodbye

The memories are still very clear
You smiling and calling me dear
Who knew i would be left here
With nothing remaining but a tear

My body was left cold as ice
For which i had to pay a heavy price
The heart filled with words you said
Is left with nothing but a soul dead

I imagined my future which had a clear picture
With you in my life as my wife

The promises you made were all a lie
Who knew it was our last goodbye
We said we'll always stay nearbye
Who knew it was our last goodbye

Guess we were never meant to be together
Yeah i believe i could do so much better
Without you near my sight
I could reach new height

The pictures still remain framed
In which you had me tamed
But the memories slowly erase
When it starts in a fresh place

The promises you made were all a lie
But i promised i would never cry
As life goes on slowly and slowly
We know who deserve to stay truly

The last goodbye still haunts me
In the park near the tree
But that phase was in the past
Now's the time to have a blast

First Day in a new school
New faces who made me a fool

Regrets to the choices i made
Rescue me from here my mind prayed

Suddenly i laid my eyes
To a pleasant surprise

An angel who hypnotized me completely
Made me fall in love so quickly

I saw you but hadn't talked
Was too afraid so i just stalked

You smiled and came to the ground
come with me i'll show you around

This was too good to be true
As we were walking through

I saw your pretty eyes
And life gave me a new reason to rise

We talked for a while
All the time with a smile

Time with you went so soon
Didn't realize it became noon

Our relationship blossomed
We were just that awesome

Slowly you became my best friend
Who promised to stay with me till the end

Often we had our fights
Which went on for nights

But after a new dawn
It was all gone

We were like a perfect match
Who stayed together without a scratch

You stayed with me during my hard times
I'll stay right by you even if i am left with dimes

The advice you gave
Have helped me save
A large number of grave errors
Which would have resulted in terrors

To talk to you was my destiny
And the memories with you are many

To have you in my life was a wish that was granted
After all the prayers i guess i had chanted

The day still haunts me
It gives me chills and creeps me

You sat there in your home
Opting out to go and roam

Suddenly the bell rang
And you quickly sprang

You opened the door
And there were four

Men with knives
Who were after your life

You screamed loudly
The men said proudly

No one can hear
Your despair

One man came ahead
You ran near your bed

The man caught you quickly
And sliced through you sickly

You screamed in pain
As they cut through your vein

Soon you were dead
As the gang fled

I got a call
Saying it was all

Over and the job was completed
My gf was dead who cheated

I regret this till the date
Of doing this which changed my fate

I was soon caught and arrested
The court had me tested

Whether i was insane
But they don't know my pain

And now as i am locked up
I regret and decide to give up

The decision to use a knife
Is how i am going to end my life