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ashe williams Jul 2015
skinny girl
insane poet
mind of nothing
i mind nothing
i was told that it
would be okay

surreptitious aching babe
tiny wood animal
a small slip
a slow descent
into insanity

food babe
collared shirt
pink and blue
green and black
small candy bruises

loving someone
is the problem.
the eccentricity of this whole poem is explained in the last line honestly
ashe williams Jul 2015
today i cut off some of my hair with a pink razor

and now i keep finding half-inch strands

all in my shirt
and on my wrists
and even once on this page

and ever since i've been
waiting
for that new freeing
feeling

the one you're supposed
to get
when you're listening to soft
music

and you're not sure what your
hair will look like
when it dries

and that sun ––

that sun is peeling through the
leaves just to meet your gaze

then blind you.

i've been waiting,
and waiting,
and waiting.

yet all i feel is this
silly complacence and a
slight mourning for all the
time i've wasted.

and through these former pages
i can see the indentions
of the pressure
my hands have pressed
into these former pages

and i wonder what it was
that caused me to apply
so much force

to a 5cent yellow mechanical
pencil

that can do no more than
breathe sentience into my
thoughts,

my drawling thoughts,

and remind me that i've been
wearing gym shorts and a
grey t-shirt with the logo of
a bar i've never even been
to before

for about three days now.

i guess

i'm expecting the wrong things
to fill me up.
ashe williams Jul 2015
telling me to find
my way out of
the dark, like
cold hands on my
neck, like blankets
on my spine, like
a distraction in the
form of thoughts about
her. the all-encompassing
fact haunts me that
i am important,
and that that alone
is my burden to
bear.
like sleepy sweet
eyes and the jagged
edge of his canines,
i'm wrought to accept
that the validity of
my very real purpose
can be found in the
eyes of my Father.
i am so scared.
the night weans and
wears, but somehow
the lights are on and
the falsified bright burns
red through my eyelids.
ashe williams Jul 2015
don't know what it is about this time of year,
but the neighborhood can never sleep.
the moon is nigh and space is too wide and our thoughts are invading like wandering sheep.
there's a lurch in my gut, i'm praying, begging for luck,
i need less than what is stirring and reluctantly killing my brain.
ashe williams Jul 2015
we can talk until
the moon recedes
and the grass
grows back from
winter

i know you hate
the way it looks
when you smile
and somehow
it's caused your
sun to
splinter

the terror of
the thought of
not being enough
hugging your chest
baby, you're
too tough

take a breath
and let the
bad thoughts
settle
and
simmer
if you think this poem is about you then it probably is
ashe williams Jul 2015
not that the ness
is gone she's found
herself carrying a
burden of pure
boredom. the dusk
falls and she all
but grimaces at it,
rips out more hair,
waits for the sun
to **** her new skin,
she is *******,
she is the unbearable
weight of standing
still while falling.
her eyes are not
blind, but she
keeps them shut
in fear that one
day they will be.
she is years of
sixteen, of sundays.
her hair is dark
but it reflects every
light she passes.
she will keep pounding
this pencil, examining
her fate, shifting blocks
around in hopes of
forming a circle. the
only thing enough
for her lies on
the other side of
the canyon, where
interstitial a
great danger looms.
she has been
falling
falling
falling
forever,
and one cannot
help but wonder
when her dear
havoc will end.
i wonder who this poem is about
ashe williams Jul 2015
i can hear their downstairs laughter,
their pattering feet,
i wouldn't say it aloud but
this is the first time i've felt
something in weeks.
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